closed door

2012-02-25T14:12:00.001+08:00

ok, ive decided to go sp alone tmr :)) hee. but there is no food here tmr .. hmmm

2012-02-24T20:11:00.001+08:00

Hmm, shall i go sp alone this sunday ?

2012-02-22T23:17:00.001+08:00

will i?

wait, i think i will . since im so tired hahaha

2012-02-22T23:12:00.001+08:00

i rly hated myself for going to slp that nite ...

wun be able to forget that forever

2012-02-22T23:10:00.001+08:00

i kept feeling so tired whenever i reach home recently . so tired that i dun feel liek doing anything .

this is bad .

maybe i shall stop trying to leave sch so early .

hmmmm

2012-02-22T23:07:00.001+08:00

i have no idea what i shld be saying alr ...

2012-02-21T23:13:00.001+08:00

大家到底知道了多少？

2012-02-19T12:15:00.001+08:00

seriously, i dun think that i need to be taken care of cos i dun deserve any nice treatment

2012-02-18T22:38:00.002+08:00

I rly think that i have ruined my body. Too tired to finish my meals

2012-02-18T22:00:00.001+08:00

M i causing alot of misery?

2012-02-18T14:11:00.001+08:00

Y do i feel so sad ?:/

2012-02-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

i should refrain from talking so much ...

2012-02-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

i feel so irritated wid myself.
i tot that im alr immune to certain statements but apparently, i wasnt.

g is giving me such a headache.
everyone's telling him the same thing but he wun change.
told him abt it nicely today and hopefully he will change.
feel vexed to see fish sad.
argh. zzzz . im so gonna save dem the next time i hear about those words agn.

WORDS.
so irritating.

2012-02-12T15:05:00.001+08:00

so tired ....
i think one packet of beehoon can last me for the whole day LOL

2012-02-12T14:13:00.003+08:00

i suddenly rmb sth while studying ..

we were given a surprised test that wasnt graded previously .
(open book one too though)
when the test ended, the tutor was asking who think that the resultant wave is a pure sinusoidal one. me and aaron raised our hands .
thus, dylan asked "my fren in black, how is this so?"
den aaron quickly took off his jacket .
HAHAHAH SO CUTE RITE .
i was laughing hard and den the whole class laughed tgt .

2012-02-12T12:15:00.001+08:00

Fun fact from lecture slides: Penguins look alike even to other penguins; they distinguish each other through the unique beat frequencies produced, which is the resultant amplitude from the difference in the 2 wave frequencies produce by the 2 sides of their vocal organ.

2012-02-12T12:08:00.001+08:00

doubt that i can go sp to study on sunday . or hmm , shall i ?

2012-02-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

Why....

2012-02-09T09:45:00.001+08:00

Realy feel that ive chnged alot ever since i entered uni .. esp abt the things i do in sch

2012-02-09T07:55:00.001+08:00

It feels so good to b saying everything out :)

2012-02-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, i dun feel like making any explanation cos it'll seem like im making excuses though they are wad happened ... i think this arose aft the p and a incident ...

2012-02-08T22:04:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i dun feel like making any explanation cos it'll seem like im making excuses though they are wad happened ... i think this arose aft the p and a oncident ...

2012-02-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Thanks guys ! I wun faint anw, so dun need to worry

2012-02-08T15:39:00.000+08:00

Ever since that day, i rly didnt ....
But i nvr learn certain things

2012-02-08T10:02:00.001+08:00

我好笨。要等到失去才会珍惜，是吗？
好痛好痛。。。。。。

2012-02-08T07:37:00.000+08:00

Sucks to be me .. hate myself terribly now ....

2012-02-08T07:14:00.001+08:00

Im sorry ...

2012-02-08T07:05:00.000+08:00

Cnt believe that im actually doing this in the mrt .
..

2012-02-08T06:45:00.003+08:00

I really duno wad i shld be saying ..
I cried in my sleep without making any dreams . Guess that i anticipated this coming while sleeping .
I deserve it, dun i?
Maybe i was really selfish.
Im sorry. Im really sorry..

I on three alarm clocks ytd night and idk y i didnt off my phone ytd night.
luckily for that, i managed to wake up . None of my alarm seem to go off and None of the incoming messages could wake me up . I just slept on ... maybe i shld rite ? Den i wldnt have to see anything..

2012-02-04T01:09:00.001+08:00

I was active i twitter previously for mths only cos of alvin ... but now, im active agn for another reason :D

2012-02-04T01:04:00.003+08:00

people cnt seem to recognise me ytd LOL
i had to keep waving at dem before they will respond LOL !

2012-02-03T17:30:00.002+08:00

Dere are sooooooo many smart ppl here whom the seniors deemed as "disgusting" ppl cos they are way tooooooo smart. However, i knew alot of nice nice ppl here who are so willing to help out

2012-01-31T09:37:00.001+08:00

I feel naked, literally

2012-01-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

Headache , giddy spells...
Kept feeling hungry bt no appetite to eat D:

2012-01-30T22:55:00.001+08:00

Im still walking home now ... so tired .

2012-01-29T23:15:00.001+08:00

hmm, im such a bad person

2012-01-29T18:35:00.001+08:00

maybe , i shldnt have said anything and keep mute over EVERYTHING ...

2012-01-27T01:00:00.001+08:00

i guess that i will be disliked

2012-01-26T23:28:00.000+08:00

i think im falling sick soon..
kept having dry cough recently and feel cold easily too.
it cld be due to the cold weather...
and im having like poor appetite. one meal is sufficient to keep me gng for the day even if i didnt manage to finish it . lol

2012-01-26T08:30:00.001+08:00

Unexplanable ..

2012-01-25T23:17:00.001+08:00

Wad can i do ?

2012-01-24T22:41:00.001+08:00

wad else can i wish for other than u being alright?

2012-01-24T21:49:00.001+08:00

wad cld be beta??

2012-01-24T21:42:00.000+08:00

i feel so awful bt i noe that i cnt drag it on ... ...

2012-01-24T20:11:00.001+08:00

am i making the right approach?

am i being selfish?

wad will happen if i go get one now .. hmmm

well, it's half said..

2012-01-23T21:46:00.001+08:00

my white lies are back

"are u feeling beta?"

"yesyes i am :)"

"are u alright? wad happened?"

"haha im okay laa :))"

2012-01-23T21:05:00.002+08:00

this is the most boring cny ever LOL

as usual, i went to dad's side and stoned...

kept staring at my phone just to reply to whatsapp and smses

luckily ppl came to talk to me

else, i wld be the one spamming alot of ppl to chat wid me

and i actually wanted to jio frens out tmr to study tgt wid me...

anw, plan changed. gng out tmr instead

'nuff said . wad can i do ? ignore?

2012-01-22T19:58:00.000+08:00

why was i so affected?

happy cny eve everyone !!

2012-01-22T01:58:00.003+08:00

nice .. wad nice lies....

i nvr knew that someone can actually lie about such things.

to make urself seem beta??

have u wondered wad will happen when time comes?

ur lies will be uncovered and make u look so ugly..

thanks for lying to me all along ..

"appreciated" these cos they made me understand u super clearly

2012-01-22T00:31:00.001+08:00

am i causing alot of miseries?
i just really duno how i shld react cos i nvr seem to be able to do anything correctly .
oh bother

2012-01-21T23:01:00.002+08:00

Whywhywhy am i feeling so weird now . Matrix, r u responsible for this ??????????

2012-01-21T22:12:00.001+08:00

This is so irritating . I can do the same question for over 10 times and not being able to get the correct ans . Instead, i got different answers wid each tries . Bravo .....

2012-01-19T08:35:00.000+08:00

Some things are beta off as unsaid i guess...
Hurts bt no choice

2012-01-17T23:44:00.001+08:00

i think that im a sinner ..

2012-01-17T23:39:00.001+08:00

hmm .. :/

2012-01-15T09:37:00.002+08:00

Prof said that first yr's gpa isnt impt as second and third yr's AU will b much more. By the fourth year, our gpa will b ard there . I wld agree wid this but i will still wanna strive for a much beta gpa for my second sem ... it seems like alot ppl are getting second upper class. I noe that i can get it too ... maybe a first class is too much to ask for . Im only aiming for a sencond upper. Just wanna up myself for one class ;) i noe i can do it ...

I enjoy being single now cos i dun have to worry abt hurting the one that is impt to me ... nor worry abt him making me tear and hurt and accusing me for the things i do . I dun have to face jealousy that im spending time wid my family and not having time for him . I can solely concentrate on my studies. How great can this get when i dun have to suffer more hurt ? Who noes that THIS could be due to the fact of this incident just like my poly third yr , first sem ??? Nah, not blaming like u wld ....

2012-01-13T18:26:00.002+08:00

this is the FIRST time i mugged on the first week of sch and recap what i've learnt for the day itself daily ;)

feels so happy to have accomplished this.

if time permits, i will do the questions in the tb before lecturer starts teaching us about it ..

this rly makes me understand what the lecturer says muchmuchmuch beta :D

and i feel happy that bro clinched a biz deal from my fren ;)

thanks fren !

2012-01-12T20:38:00.001+08:00

Lol . Senior said "it is only the first wk of sch and u guys alr mugged till so late" . Lol , i dun rly find it late actually haha . Only leave ntu three hrs later as planned . Guess i will reach home at 10pm today ... poor clothes . Sighs

2012-01-11T22:23:00.001+08:00

the first week of sch is barely over and i can feel that time is running real short already :(

2012-01-10T21:52:00.001+08:00

wonder why i always wanna fall sick when cny is nearing

2012-01-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i rly think alot .

but i'm rly tired to think too much into words

can everyone stop telling me such things?

i just want to really concentrate on my studies

im aiming for a 4.5

and tdy is the first time that i look thru wad i've learnt today in lesson

lemme score real high, pretty pls?

my gpa rly sucks right now.

it sucks to be me but i'm still gonna strive

2012-01-08T12:22:00.001+08:00

it rly is different alr lol

2012-01-07T00:15:00.001+08:00

zen me ban ... ...

2012-01-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

history ... wait . nope . it's history of other ppl ...

i'm rly trying ... but .... just dun wanna think abt it i guess ..

zzzzz

2012-01-04T18:56:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i wondered to myself: if i can start my life all over again, how will i choose to do..

i guess, i might still wanna behave in almost the same ways as how i was before except that i need to be more observant and prevent certain unhappiness from occurring. i am actually quite glad for certain things that happened because they made me think..

however, dere are certain things that i feel that i should do instead:

1) be more observant and sensitive during my sec sch times

2) study alot harder in sec sch (but i wouldn't have known my current great friends if i did)

3) study harder in poly

4) to observe xxxx more first because that's a mistake that i wun wanna repeat else we could have been good friends now

5) to make things clear to pingyuan in the beginning and we might still be friends now? but me and his character clash as we always tends to voice out our opinions.. uh well, i still duno what could be better. just hope that u r fine with whatever you are doing now.

blabhblahblah .. cannot remember anything else now

anw, i feel that i should tolerate my brother because he cares for me. i need to be more magnanimous HAHHAA

i feel very touched and happy that he said "you are my sister leh"

just wish that you can be more ji dong though..

2011-12-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

most of a time, i wldn't say that anyone is totally correct or wrong ...

cos when u r super angry wid someone that u wldn't want to talk to him or her , do kindly think that u may be in the fault as well ..

sad to say , most of the ppl wun think that they might be in the wrong ..

2011-12-29T21:00:00.003+08:00

for wadever reasons, i feel pissed the moment i reached home

1. ALL the windows in the house are closed . hello bro, u r the one at home .. dun u feel suffocated? shldnt u at least open the windows for the living room !? nvm, u nvr do

2. u were sitting at my table .. okok nvm. just wondered why ppl like to sit at my table where dere are obviously no much space dere .. and u just pushed all my things away w/o putting dem back ..

3. after ur meal, u didnt even bother to throw away the plastic bags . issit that difficult to throw !?!?

4. u didnt wash ur utensils ok . nvm agn cos u nvr ever wash anything

5. why didnt u take out the clothes !? it's like , it isn't raining at all ! u dun hang clothes at home when it's not raining rite ... now , they cnt even dry

6. u didnt even flush the toilet . issit that difficult to flush !? i feel like vomiting the moment i see the toilet bowl -.-

7. and u were like using ur comp and watching the tv . it's obviously that u aren't concentrating on any shows . can u kindly at least off the tv ? our utility bills are getting super high for goodness sake

argh ... this list can actually go on and on and on . why cnt u be zi dong abit ...

things drop and u throw ur temper which in the end, me and mum clear up UR mess .

i always nid to help u to do ur things ... cnt u be more independent in certain things ? at least, open the door urself okay , big baby ?

2011-12-26T11:11:00.002+08:00

looking at how superficial and the way u act, im became more and more glad that i'm born in a not so well-to-do family.

reason is because, i do not want to be like u,

so bad tempered,

superficial,

critical.

and u rly have a weird thinking

uh well , glad that i made the decision as well :)

2011-12-25T13:20:00.001+08:00

merry xmas everyone :D

2011-12-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

Everything is still the same . Nth has changed . Ive been so naive

2011-12-24T11:06:00.001+08:00

wad kind of a 'truth or dare' is that ytd !?

HAHAHA

all seem to aim the questions to me and him x.x

sighsss

2011-12-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

what is the meaning of life?

life has no meaning

LOL

2011-12-22T21:51:00.003+08:00

seriously, i hate it when my mind experiences flashback when i noe that im over it alr ..

seeing fren's flyer's, uss's pic rly make me think back .

though i noe that the feeling is getting lesser , i cnt help me feeling so moodless over it ..

wei shen me :(

2011-12-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

seriously, i still duno if i shld feel happy or sad .

i want to be happy abt my results but feel that most of my frens score way beta than me

i cnt be complacent .

i nid to try to hit second upper class nxt time round .

but i 力不重心...

2011-12-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

i hope that u will take in those words and rly think abt it ..

it's for ur own good ..

2011-12-22T15:59:00.004+08:00

i received this rude phone call just now and the conv goes like this

telemarketer: hello, this is calling from wendy's company to xxxxxx (cnt rly hear clearly)

me: uh huh, okay ..

telemarketer: by the way, are u still a student or working ?

me: student.

telemarketer: ok bye

with that, she just put down the phone abruptly

me: ???? huh ?

wad a rude way to end the conv. u can always say "den that's okay . thank you , goodbye"

at least that's wad i'd say

2011-12-22T13:09:00.000+08:00

me: i dreamt that i failed my lab . i got grades like 2.5, 3, 2 out of 10 for all the reports .

mum: if u dream that u fail , u wun fail . this means that u will pass

me: oh , possible . cos lab is impossible to fail . but i only dreamt that i failed one . so means that im gonna pass this and fail the others ?

2011-12-22T10:01:00.003+08:00

i had failed all my tests for cprog terribly and tot that i'd need to dabao this mod .

but thank goodness that i didnt fail nor get a grade of C or lesser :D

2011-12-20T23:39:00.003+08:00

hmmm ... weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird weird ! :(

2011-12-20T23:22:00.005+08:00

nvm . forget abt it

2011-12-20T23:16:00.004+08:00

misrep:

-fraudulent

-negligence

-innocence

out of these three, i love to explain the last one --innocence

cos it's simple to explain

i just nid two words "just blur" HAHAH (Y) rite !

i rmb explaining this chap of bus law to cheryl and when i explain innocence ,

paperfish pointed her fingers at me , saying "ya . just blur like her" HAHAH

haix . one more day :(

2011-12-20T22:21:00.001+08:00

it's getting so confusing now .

i think i shld just forget abt it

2011-12-19T20:19:00.001+08:00

sometimes, treating someone nice isn't equivalent to the monetary rewards that u're giving her .

u can be deemed as ill-treating someone even if u r giving her rewards at the same time unless im talking abt some materialistic person here .

not everyone treats maternal objects as everything and the only things in the world .

2011-12-18T16:16:00.001+08:00

i suddenly wanna celebrate xmas :)

not rly celebrate but just to go out ..

2011-12-18T13:31:00.001+08:00

Wanted to slp at 10 pm ytd but as i shut down my comp , the tv aired "incredible tales". Intended to slp aft show ended but fren delayed my slping time for abt 50 mins x.x

2011-12-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

why am i so lazy :(

2011-12-17T10:35:00.000+08:00

i suddenly browsed thru the pics and miss the past .

2011-12-16T22:31:00.001+08:00

merry xmas everyone :P

2011-12-16T21:46:00.001+08:00

i like helping my frens .

but sometimes , i wondered if im too busybody .

cos i will auto hlp before they even request for it .

(not all the times though . i'd be oblivious to dem most of the times :/ )

2011-12-16T20:58:00.004+08:00

Had plurkers' outing ytd :D

went to tanjong for our sakae outing .

had ard 10+ ppl gng initially but ended up only 5 of us turned up .

but we still had loads of laughter and i laughed till i cried :X

and vincent kept wanting to tk my pic ! LOL

he didnt succeed but i did ~ :P

took one pic wid tofu . in the toilet HAHHA
and pup said that this is piception . LOL

2011-12-16T20:56:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TsPFU5KevQM

LOL ! this is ultra cute la ! i kept watching it over and over agn and finds the blue's back hook to be so cute xD

imagine me doing this during my sparring D:

im so gonna be kicked till i fly out HAHA .

2011-12-16T19:09:00.002+08:00

2011-12-16T18:32:00.002+08:00

The little boy is very cute rite ! HAHA

http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=singlish&oq=singlish&aq=f&aqi=g10&aql=&gs_sm=e&gs_upl=1103742l1103921l0l1104160l2l2l0l0l0l0l142l142l0.1l1l0

2011-12-16T18:10:00.003+08:00

found these in youtube . haha

2011-12-15T20:30:00.001+08:00

i blurted two names accidentally T.T

luckily one name is a super common one and is the same as one of the ppl out for the outing .

*phew*

2011-12-15T11:58:00.000+08:00

i think i have said the wrong words T.T

beta to siammmmmmm D:

2011-12-15T11:14:00.002+08:00

idk if ur that sentence is saying abt me .

but if u r , den i am v disappointed in u .

i've been doing so much and yet u still say this .

if i heven treated it seriously , i wldn't have teared so much and tried so much to salvage ..

utterly disappointed .

2011-12-15T10:30:00.002+08:00

i got so happy seeing my close frens that i kept blabbering ..

i nid to stop talking so much .

i wonder why my shyness is back agn ..

i tend to shun away / avoid direct eye contact even when im talking to dem .

i noe it's rude but i cnt help it .

cos i think i will blush .

this happens even wid my neighbour ytd :/

i hope she dun think that im being rude :/

but that kind of feeling fade away aft awhile .

i rmb that i only have this type of reaction when i see online frens for the first time (though that's soooo long ago alr)

haix . why is this so

2011-12-15T09:14:00.001+08:00

now i noe why my phone batt depletes so fast when im outside and not at home ...

2011-12-14T22:57:00.002+08:00

i made such a blunder today .

my fren is still in korea and i tot that he is joining us today .

i smsed him and wondered why he didnt reply .

so i smsed my another fren saying "aaron miaed :("

HAHAHAH .

omt . i only realized this blunder when i met up wid my another frens .

oops sorry :x

anw , paperfish was saying "you kept singing non stop sia . ur mouth has nvr stopped moving"

HAHAH i noe ! im this enthu when it comes to singing esp songs that i noe xD HAHAHAH .

too bad that i didnt get to sing fish leong's and angela's songs :(