So sian... lack of  sleep every weekday and need to wake up early every weekend and then rush around.. worse still is if i get unnecessary nonsense.... sometimes is fine but it rly makes me feel irritated.. sigh.. sleep helps but my report is untouched...

im getting so many problem from this company. is this vp to be exact. please dont disturb me when i am home. i just want to be alone.. dad gave black face and u gave another one too. what do u want me to do ?! im being stuck in the middle AGAIN. in intern and at home. seriously, STOP IT. im really sick of these. i really didnt know what to do at work..

It is a terrible day...

If this carries on , im gonna have depression. Sigh. I need an outlet.

Looks like i have to tire myself out daily....

I cant get rid of this depressed feeling ....

Cant stop crying now...

I feel so tired.... Dont feel like caring about anything.... But i cant. even if i tried doing, im deemed as not. that sucks..

everything feels good for now :p
i love my job (for now) hahahhaa

i feel ultra terrible now ... all those past negative thinking that i used to have are back... im better off gone...

life is never the same, never will be the same and has been the same..
havent gone to my blog for so long. saw a comforting message when i went in. thanks for the shoutout in my tag board. :)

This feeling sucks big time. Thats the reason why i hated to be home. Id rather go out daily even if im tired... cause i feel more tired staying at home.. i dont feel any care from u. U just got so petty. Any little thing can make u ignore me or even give me attitude. This made me irritated but i dont care abt it at times. No matter if i got irritated or not , i just got scolded or given attitude. Whats the point of staying here... u still dont see it , do u ? This happened since sec sch. Im rly tired. U nvr do this to bro and i dont see how my temper is worse than his. Im so tired...

sometimes, i really wonder why u r so petty. im already feeling so tired with all the drama outside and yet u never fail to add on to them. argh

Thank you so much. I appreciate it. :)

I feel so demoralized and...upset....

Never would i thought that my uni life would be so sucky. Initially when there was only me and my lab partner , i wouldnt need to hear all those complains from someone . There was no one trying to make her problems, mine. Though my lab partner has his shortcomings , at least he isnt scheming. Life was good with occasional clique outing. We spent our bday celebrations together. Life ....was good.

After the first sem, me and someone else noticed the bad behaviour of a certain person. We were upset and angry. But , that didnt lasted long. How can i even get angry with my friend for so long ?

It was after someone ran away that the mini clique fell apart. Someone tried to come closer to me. She succeeded because my lab partner practically heck care EVERYTHING. If only waiyu accepted the offer of this course. Sigh.. but.. i refrained from telling her everything because some part of me knew that she isnt at all reliable. She leaked out one secret that she forced out of me. Thats so sly. I hate it. She claimed that someone else was scheming. Yes , she may be slightly scheming but you won in your schemes. I dont even feel like facing you. I couldnt face you. I cant bring myself to. But sometimes when i saw u, i felt bad for ignoring you and tried to treat you nicely. Sometimes , it sucks to be me. I got all softhearted in front of my friends. But what about u ? You just fished out info from people around me. Thats the diff between us. And thats why , we cant be best friends. Not even close now.

I want to ignore everything. I want to be happy. But i cant be if i dont have my once-happy clique with me. I cant bring them together if they dont want to. I dont even feel like doing so. Im tired of trying. I just want to graduate. I want to work towards my goals even if that means taking up a part time degree. I will. But not yet. I have two upcoming papera. Focus on the present. Plan for the future. Ignore the past yet let it make me a better person.

Im so upset... it feels like a broken promise...

My eyes hurt... my head hurts... everything hurts. The inital pain somehow dont hurt as much..

This prob has been troubling me for years... i feel pain almost daily... i find it hard for me to even tell anyone except the doctor. But when i said it out , i can only cry like an idiot. I feel so weak.. so vulnerable... i shldnt have said anything ...

I feel so sad... im alr feeling so much pain and yet u r still kidding. It just made things so much worse. My heart ache.. feeling pain n hurt inside out..