actually, we were supposed to have 1 hr break but lecturer released 1 hr earlier.
thus, we ended up wid 2 hrs.
9 of us were like gng to commonwealth long john and squeezed into a car.
it's like 2 in front and e other 7 more squeezing behind. HAHA !
my course mate was like driving the car and one uncle drove past.
he was like staring and staring at him !
he opened his eyes big enough to make me feel funny :x
in the end, me and my frens were like laughing at him :x

Now i finally noe why i tend to be tired more easily
as compared to e others.
and i always tot that my body is v strong,
as in my immune system.
but it was proven to be likewise !!
omg. aft 18 gng 19 yrs, i finally knew :(

it takes 10 yrs to build sth up
but only 1 min to break everything down.
things are just so vulnerable !
learn to live and let live :/
and, meet things wid a compromise.
it's saddening :/

Rather, music makes me think of a lot of things.
sometimes, i just move tgt wid the beat but most of the times,
i cnt help but emo though it's a happy song that's playing
Had been thinking of a lot of things.
i can't decipher wad some ppl are thinking.
maybe i should learn psychology?
sometimes, i get real sensitive over certain things,
certain issues.
paranoid.
not that i'm born lidat.
it's situation made me to be so.
i'm just not being myself.
cos normally, i will just push everything behind my mind.
and welcome those happy thoughts.
i noe i have happy moments.
but, unhappy ones just have to come find me.
sad past kept daunting aft me.
i tot abt someone when i heard a certain song over the radio in the train
kept thinking of the moments we shared.
i just feel guilt towards u. hope u'll stay happy.

and sometimes, i just feel so afraid to have this certain thought
in my mind.
it's been wid me since like zillion years ago.
issit cos i'm not good enough?
or just dun have anything much in common to talk to?
i wanna talk to someone.
but i can't.
i noe i can't.
cos ppl will just go
"aiya. u're being oversensitive. it's nth in fact"

This feeling sucks sucks sucks !
I'm just used to keeping everything to myself.
i'm just used to be quiet sometimes.
i'm just used to talking probs to myself.
i'm just used to blogging dem down.
my forever listening ear.
I'm just...
feeling so sucky? :/

school strts !!!

Rice field:
!

criticism. good when it helps.
but bad, when it becomes a "burden"
just, 积点口得。

Hello !
sch is strting less than a wk's time.
good thing and bad thing at the same time !
but no matter wad, i'll enjoy my holidays left for now !
ytd is enjoyable !
but of cos, it wun be said here :D
heh.

watched "how to train your dragon", dined at "just acia" and bowled !!
soo happy wid my bowling results xD
need to practice more xD
same goes for pool i guess ! hahaha
enjoyed tdy !!!!!
<3 ! ((:

looking back, i found myself real stupid !
maybe not much of a stupidity but more of laziness.
cos, i felt that i could have done much beta for my previous sems.
i mean, real much much much beta.
if i had, previously,
my cumu gpa wouldn't have been this bad, now

currently watching "hello baby"!!!
soo funny can ! xD
ROFL !!
:D:DD

went out for bowling and lunch !
one word: crazy !!!!
hahahaa.
and that kang kong, sneaked shots of us !
den aft tt sure go into his "ra ra lololo" album
or wadeva the name is :x

i rly thinks tt dere is sth wrong wid msn.
not the same prob as most ppl had.
it's just that those unknowns whom i have not talked to for soooo long,
came talking to me these few days
and e prob is, i've deleted dem from msn.
*oops*

thoughts flooded my mind,
and insomnia hit me :/
couldn't get to slp last nite.
cos, i had been thinking of useless things.
not rly useless.
or should i say, memories?

can i dun talk about those anymore?
just move on, all right? ://

Rainbow always comes right after raining.
ain't it equivalent to saying everything'll be fine aft a hurdle?
to me, i wun beg to differ.
i still remember that i used to ponder over my mistakes made.
crying over spilled milk.
and chose to ignore wad had happened.
in the end of the day, it's like mistakes made but no lesson learnt, kinda thing.

as time passes, and as i grew older (not that old, so as to speak),
i began to realize that hurdles are made just to make ppl stronger.
and i believe i might has said this to certain ppl.
obstacles are dere, not to bring someone down,
not to make someone dwelling upon it forever
but to make someone change.
everything happens for a reason
if u're not able to put this down, make a change,
den u're making a big mistake in life.

and, the world is getting weirder indeed.
ppl believe in "an eye for an eye"
no doubt, that could be the most effective way to make ppl learn
but ain't it making life more troubling?
like thinking of how to get back at that person?
it's just making this world a more revengeful one.
perhaps, one day, i might be like one of u guys.
"indulging" in grievances and exploding on one fine day.
that could just happen but i guess,
i'll curb myself for doin that.
cos it's just so tiring to get back at someone.
and even to be angry at a certain person.

no matter where u are living,
or situated at,
only you can make urself happy,
though i dun deny, sad things that happened will tend to make things the other way round.
but nth can bring u down,
if u're determined to stay happy.
it's all right to be sad wid a certain thing for a period of time,
cos the hurt inflicted might be a great one,
and memories are dere.
but it's hurting to be at the same spot forever, in life.
just move on.

people are just soo realistic.
ain't dey?

it's tmr , tmr , tmr !
:D

haix. dun talk to me abt this topic :/ like as if i wished

someone will be back tmr !! xD
sooo happy ! :D:D
say bb to sadness !! ((:

okay !
i'm here agn
all alone at home now,
bored to the max.
and broke to e max too !!!!
gonna try to dig out money
if not, i can say bb to the outing this wkend alr !!

gotten results today.
was asleep when i heard my phone ring.
saw 2 smses.
okay, but i read my results first.
cnt sleep when i first saw my results.
and when i saw my cumu gpa,
my mood dropped ://
it's soo sucky !
cnt even hit the range that i wanted ://

COUNTING DOWN : 3 more days !!!! :(
awww. still soo long !!!!

okay, this post is taken from androne.
find it kinda true.


"What God has joined together, let no man separate".

Separation and attacks will not come from within the relationship, but from the outside. As such, we got to guard our hearts and always stick close to each other. That is why like Ps Robb Thompson said, our destiny is tied to the ones we call friends. Be careful, not to let other people meet your partner's needs, if not, you're doomed. Thats why its important to know each other well.

Who are the people you associate yourself with? They're not just going to be there when you're single, but also when you're attached. Will they support, not just you, but your partner? Its like choosing a spouse, when marriage comes into the picture, its no longer about you anymore, its about their parents, your in-laws, do you get along? Has God given you the favor? Do you have what it takes to reach out to the unsaved in your partner's family?

This verse has a pre-requisite, attacks and separation will come from the outside only...IF...as the first part says, "What God has joined together," it has to be a God-idea, not just a man-made good idea, just because you feel good about someone, etc. Choosing the wrong person, you dont have to say much, separation and attacks can and WILL come from inside the relationship. I can prophesy to you haha. Wrong attitudes, different vision, wrong flow, etc. Quarrels and squabbles.

A member once shared with me before, to be unequally yoked is not just about religion or beliefs, its about vision and purpose. If one believes in going overseas to do missions and the other believes in local evangelism, then where's the link in that? Where's the flow? How can the two accomplish anything unless they are agreed?

If A is too mature, and B is new in the Lord, A will feel he/she's always the one sacrificing, he/she will feel used. While B will always feel, why am I so useless, why do I always have to be the one needing to be loved and cared for? Why cant for once, I make anything right and care for him/her instead? There will be conflict.

Another example...unequally yoked, one has a lifestyle of prayer and fasting, the other, is just starting out.

One day, problems hit. "come dear, lets fast and pray". And the newer one who's not as committed 'yet', will feel, ahh, Im so tired, so many problems, I just wanna sleep. How then, can the couple resolve any conflict? Have the same level of faith, so that you can be in constant agreement, and the place of CONSTANT AGREEMENT, will then be a place of CONSTANT POWER! There will NEVER be a situation where you two cannot resolve!

Thats why most couples in church, tend to find their partners in the midst of ministry, in the midst of serving. Because they do things together. There is teamwork. A relationship without teamwork is nothing more than just a gathering of two people who feel a lot about each other.

Doing things together brings a couple closer together. Doing your own things, having your own girls night or guys night, having cliques, is going to destroy any relationship. In the first place, you expose yourself to let others meet your needs. Thats a failure in responsibility. You treasure your feelings more than the person.

People who jump into a relationship without first establishing basic friendship is a FOOL! "He who wins souls (friends) is wise". If you become partners before first becoming best friends, then when the feelings is not there, which level do you fall back on? "Best friend"? "Good friend"? "Companion"? or....STRANGERS?

BEFORE the relationship, who was the person, to you? That is the kind of relationship you will have with him/her, in the event things dont go well, because you have no strength in the friendship to fall back on.

If you cant even be a close friend, or even a best friend before a relationship - comfortable to share your problems, comfortable to cry and fully express yourself, comfortable with not just the good points, but the faults and imperfections of that person - then how are you going to think things will get any better after being attached?

As a friend, just because you like him/her, and you've never seen him/her angry before..you enter a relationship with him. All of a sudden, you see a side of him/her that you've never seen before, you get confused, hurt, disappointed and then you're stuck, because you already liked him/her and you stay on for the sake of the good feelings you shared, not for the person! (You dont like the person, yet you like the person because of the good feelings. Isnt it so? - The irony.)

Jesus is our example. Lets renew our mind. If you see love the way the world sees it, you've missed the point! God = love. If your love isnt true love, but worldly love, then: No true love = No true God, because God = love! GOD...is not in your equation! He is not in your relationship because true God = true love.

John Avanzini once preached, (for once, it wasnt about finances hahaha, so cool), "The purpose of marriage is not just for love and a happy blissful life, the purpose of marriage is to be MORE LIKE CHRIST, to learn how to live a lifestyle of love, forgiveness, faith and sacrificial giving!"

Marriage provides you with the space for conflicts and disagreements here and there, to teach you how to be patient, loving, to listen and be sensitive. Successes are birthed out of failures. Its only in an atmosphere where there is room to make mistakes, that there is room for a person to change. With sufficient grace and mercy of course.

Marriage provides you with the vulnerability for affairs, so that you learn how to develop tenacity and inner strength to forgive, to resist, to meet the needs of others at the expense of self, and the faith you need to bring change and restoration. It opens your eyes to what makes your partner tick, and to know him/her better, not by avoiding each other or calling it quits, but by doing the first things together, once again. And it will come back stronger than ever before.

Lets say because something bad happened in the relationship, your love from 100% has dropped to 40%. Its okay, dont quit! Start dating again. Build your love from scratch, dont just be committed, be LOYAL (to the right person of course).

When you guys finally fall back in love and your hearts are fully open again...guess what, now, not only do the both of you have 100% love, but because previously, you were once in love before, now you STACK the love points and COMBINE them...you get a 140% love! FOR THE GLORY OF GOD!!!

GOD...CAN TURN YOUR STUMBLING BLOCK INTO A NEW STARTING BLOCK! HE CAN TURN YOUR TOMBSTONE INTO A NEW STEPPING STONE! HE'S NOT A GOD WHO IS DEAD, BUT THE GOD WHO OVERCAME DEATH AND IS ALIVE! HALLELUJAH!

Marriage provides you with the space for financial difficulty once in awhile, so as to teach you proper financial management, how to live a lifestyle of tithing and generous offerings to God, how to master the laws of the harvest and how to practically live it out.

For practical reasons, its only when you're married, then you get to experience what its like living with another person and be STUCK to him/her for the rest of your life feels like! HAHA. Good or bad, you decide.

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.