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 No idea why.... but u always gave me irritated or annoyed tone everytime u r tired or if u are angry with her. Do you have any idea that I am not angry with ur reaction but am just very upset? 

All I want is just that smile or hug from you. I have told you about it but nothing has changed..... I know u r tired. So am I. I have been trying to stop making it seem like I am throwing a tantrum or being angry but I just cant help it... I am just upset. Even when I am tired, I still tried to smile at you. I dont give annoyed tone unless I am just having my mood swing. Haix.. 

 Feeling so upset. Why does it feel like I am still being doubted although I said I did not do it. Your patience to me has become so low. We are all tired. I have been hanging on and have been trying so hard to keep my temper and emotions under control but why does it feel like you constantly gave me irritated tone... irritated look... and being so impatient with me.. 

All I ask for is just that patience.. 

Ever since that day.. the day when i waited the whole day just for an answer... but yet didnt receive any.. that i felt so lethargic in everything i do. No more drive. No more motivation. No mood. No energy. Maybe i shldnt ask anymore. And just let it drag. Maybe i shldnt be so enthusiatic. Shld just ignore.. shldnt even bring it up.

I feel so upset...... couldnt fall asleep every night even when my brain wasnt thinking of anything.... i just cant fall asleep....

I wanted to ask. I wanted to talk about it but i got cold shoulder and no response......

Haix haix haix haix...

How cld someone not know why he or she call the other party...... haix..

I feel so tired... so sian... it feels like my family dont even understand me at all. Dont even give me any chance to explain myself.

Ive let down my pride and starting talking yet all i got was rubbish..

Im so tired... really tired. I wish i can just ignore everything but i cant... it is my family that i am talking about.... i really cant... feels so upset now.. so so tired...

It feels so terrible... all my drive seems to be killed and gone...
Things taught are forgotten and were claimed that i didnt teach anything.....
U even claimed that udk what im doing.. how could that be... im doing work beside u. And now and then, you would turn and ask what im doing. Hello? Isnt it obvious ???? Zzz.
All the shit all drop down from the top.all the frontline ppl only knows how to come to me even after i directed them to the person in charge. They wld also expect me to ask the person on their behalf. Zzzz
Im so tired of all these nonsense.