Ever since that day.. the day when i waited the whole day just for an answer... but yet didnt receive any.. that i felt so lethargic in everything i do. No more drive. No more motivation. No mood. No energy. Maybe i shldnt ask anymore. And just let it drag. Maybe i shldnt be so enthusiatic. Shld just ignore.. shldnt even bring it up.

I feel so upset...... couldnt fall asleep every night even when my brain wasnt thinking of anything.... i just cant fall asleep....

I wanted to ask. I wanted to talk about it but i got cold shoulder and no response......

Haix haix haix haix...

How cld someone not know why he or she call the other party...... haix..

I feel so tired... so sian... it feels like my family dont even understand me at all. Dont even give me any chance to explain myself.

Ive let down my pride and starting talking yet all i got was rubbish..

Im so tired... really tired. I wish i can just ignore everything but i cant... it is my family that i am talking about.... i really cant... feels so upset now.. so so tired...

It feels so terrible... all my drive seems to be killed and gone...
Things taught are forgotten and were claimed that i didnt teach anything.....
U even claimed that udk what im doing.. how could that be... im doing work beside u. And now and then, you would turn and ask what im doing. Hello? Isnt it obvious ???? Zzz.
All the shit all drop down from the top.all the frontline ppl only knows how to come to me even after i directed them to the person in charge. They wld also expect me to ask the person on their behalf. Zzzz
Im so tired of all these nonsense.

Im so tired at times.... work is giving me alot of shit. Im trying to handle the stress and the grievences that i felt at work.. luckily i have gym that helps me to destress healthily. So much that ive grown a liking to it. I felt better after a run...

When i got home from work, it should be a home where i wont feel those stress. But somehow.... i felt worse at home. People get angry with me for no reason. Those favouritism... sometimes.. i felt like the ppl closest to me ... dont even unds how i feel. I dont need u to unds me. I dont need u to ditch the favouritism... i just need u to unds that i dont get angry for no reason. And just get angry at me.. even if things get better that day, i wont even know how long it will last. I dont even have the energy anymore... to hope that it will last. Im pretty certain that things will revert to its worse self after a few weeks or even a week later...

All these.... r really exhausting me..

My heart really hurts when u told me to cry....