no idea why i am feeling so sad now. like there is no reason for me to...

it just seems like no matter wad i do dun help at all, no matter how hard i try. im such a failure...

sometimes, im just afraid that u will get tired of me as time passes and not treat me as good by den. u will just get tired of my forever complainings of feelinirunwell... lalala

i suddenly feel so lonely after yesterday. my phobia acted up again and i had alot of nightmares ytd though i only recalled two. i dreamt that i weren't feeling well along the street and no one bothered. not even someone who is closed to me. i noe that i'm thinking too much but....i really had my phobia back up again. i couldn't be happy no matter how much i tried today.
i actually cried myself to sleep ytd night after quite long. couldn't sleep and cannot remember what time i actually fell asleep. i kept wondering why i am feeling so insecure...

this feeling really really sucks and i actually felt that im making a molehole out of nothing... sighs.
where can i go on sunday after my driving lesson? it's too early and i dun want to go home cos i cnt do anything at home... who can actually keep me companion? it's ok. i think i can just walk around alone too...