Y am i suffering from heartpain ytd and today?:(

broken promise? or maybe it isnt a promise to begin with... why am i so sad. zzz

im so tired, tired of studying alien language. i feel so lonely... i could have gone out to study today. why didnt i ? why was i so lazy?? :( at least, i'd have a bunch of ppl in the library, though unknown, to study tgt...

Why are there so many irritating ppl beside me recently !? I emailed my bro that time and told him to help me print the latest two emails that i sent. Then i told him that the names are lala and :)2. Just because i didnt put open and close inveted commas, u assumed that i was joking with u and got angry . Then , u spammed me calls even when i told u that i was having lessons and could not amswer those calls. You still gave me this message "i am busy and yet you are not answering those calls". What attitude is this. I mentioned it clearly in my message to what emails to be printed out and u still want to ask me the same questions via phone call. U told me that u r busy. So am i right !? I was having my lab briefing . It isnt recorded and is considered a very impt briefing to me. Why are u so unreasonable and inconsiderate? So now, i sent u a file that is more than 25mb. Tried sending via gmail and it said that i had to send it via google drive to be able to send emails of up to 10gb. U told me that u cant open it. Fine. So i tried to compress using winrar. Then u said "i dont know if my office comp can open winrar. You have to try ur luck". So i suggested giving u the file using thumbdrive and u said "you cant expect me to bring the thumbdrive everywhere right. Unless u want it to be spoilt". Wts is this. It will only be spoilt if u dodnt take care of it right. Unless u want to throw it inside ur bag and take no care about it. I seriously dont know why i actually want to help u bring 4 heavy books to school tmr. i was afraid that ur bag will be heavy so i helped to carry the heavy ones. I didnt even complain and now u r complaining when i suggested u to help me take a small thumbdrive to work tp see if u can open the file and print it from there. Seriously, im so fedup with ppl like u. Even ppl like alvin , stanley and sw. Wts..

Why did i suddenly think about those things again?? I dont want to recall those nightmares... i need to wake up early :( dont want to be late for open house..

i feel so sad now .... :(

I dont know why things always turn out to be so bad... i dont want to have a phobia amd didnt want to go home like how i felt during my sec sch times... that will be so bad... :(