My mid term results are a punishment for lack of practice, thinking and worrying too much about my clique probs and being lazy. Im not gng to be depressed though i know that i will feel sad about my results tmr. Im really going to buck up. Study study study. I hate myself for being so slack this sem. Wait, no hatred. Just jiayou

I have been feeling down since dont know how long ago... idk what can make me happy. Im only happy temporarily when i meet u.. but i know that we cant meet often. I dont want u to meet me often either. U have ur own things to do. I dont want u to jeopardize them cause of me. I cant be so selfish... but the biggest problem of all is, what are the things thats making me sad ? Friends ? Things that happened? Im really tired physically and emotionally. I have no energy to think... im just really tired of caring. It is not that i dont want to share my ans. I dont want to share my answers with those who aint worth me giving out so much. But thinking back, im not so heartless too. I will still send soln if they dont have any by the time i wake up to prepare to go school. When i was doing my midterm today, i really wanna sleep so much but my brain is thinking of what happened that day rather than thinking of what i have memorized. I can write them out fluently while revising but not under the condition of examination. What on earth is wrong with me ? Crazy ???? Sighs....

Idk why i am still thinking about it after it has happened for so long.... and there is so many other things in my mind other than that matter. :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(