Thursday, December 31, 2015

Why do i always have to ask questions so many times before u answer me... :'( else if i stopped asking again, u will conveniently change topic.... :'(:'( then when i changed my tone as i was feeling very upset and ur tone changed... it sounded like u r irritated or trying to scold me :'( :'(

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Guess that i didnt go to bed with a happy mood last night.. it has been long since i last cried in my sleep...

Friday, September 18, 2015


I have missed both chances this year. hope that it will reappear one year from now.

Thursday, September 17, 2015

New opportunities arise... Making my decision waver though i more or less know what i am going to choose. I would like to embark on the path of my interest but the other opportunity seems to be much better. I am very aware that it is not easy for fresh grads to enter that field, esp when the boss is very willing to groom me. heh. at least, that's what the agent told me.

I have two choices:
1) Go with a reputable bank and allow them to groom me. I will be embarking on the analyst role from now.
Cons: No offer but likely to have (as of what the company said)

2) Continue with my current interest and slowly climb up.
Cons: Offered but it will take a while for me to climb up. Maybe 3 - 5 years? Not 100% chance of being able to climb up but at least, there is a chance for me.

Anlyst role dont come easy and it is challenging. Tried similar role before and quite like it.

Likewise for my interest-- Not easy to get in. Have never tried my interest before and also not sure if i will like it in future.

I'm more inclined to continuing my path of interest but find it a pity to give the other up....

What shall i do? haix. *poke blue black*

on a side note, i am very grateful for all the help that i have gotten. I am also very grateful to the opportunities that came out of nowhere, especially when it is near impossible for someone with my course of study to have... Thanks. :)

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Feels so irritated . So useless.. to fall and i have nowhere to move or cushion the fall...

Saturday, July 18, 2015

People just dont understand....

Friday, May 29, 2015

i hate it.... it feels like im wasting my own time.....
Im so afraid of not being able to deliver my work.... i tot ytd would be able to at least do some but i was wrong... im so stupid. I cldnt find that coding which was alr insidr.... :(:(:(:(:(

Thursday, May 28, 2015

It hurts so much.... when u said to meet or do sth and conveniently forget abt it. Then asked me what happened after that... or worse still.... asked me if u promised to meet..

I brouught it back for nth. Thought for once, that my bag will be light for one day...
Somehow.... things just changed. Somehow... u werent as observant as u used to be.. maybe... im the one who changed.. maybe... it is me that expects u to be the same.... maybe... im expecting more.... but i somehow... cant help it but felt the change.... feeling so depressed...

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Why does it feel like im being forced to eat everytime -.- zzz

Friday, February 20, 2015

why..... do i have to face this treatment every morning ? :(

Saturday, January 24, 2015

I feel so terrible.. ehy must it be like this evrtyime..
Eyes feel so swollen...
Cldnt hear it.... but at least can read it right.. im so sorry for asking. Shldnt have asked amything
I shldnt kept asking for work today so that i cld leave early . Shld have stayed there till 9.30... still can catch a cab. Whats the point... my question always get ignored....