nvm .. cher eng , u can do it de ..

must persevere ...

my faith in myself may be dwindling but i need to add more oil ...

i must face all accusations bravely .

and oso , exams are coming .

i must study hard

i cnt promise myself of acing but at least , i dun wanna let myself regret by not studying hard .

maybe i'll be used to sarcastic statements, accusations and all sort of nonsense and handle dem wid a smile nxt time .

or maybe i shld learn to be immune wid myself first so that i wun get angry wid myself , like ytd ...

sorry fortune teller for letting u down .

i guess that i'm always so slow that i nid the second time to see things clearly .

i have a bad feeling now .

am i being selfish ?

cos i dun want anyone to leave me right now .

these includes those ppl that i've been talking to .

those that i study tgt wid

the only few ppl that i confide in

and the one that i rly rly rly confide so much in

pls dun deny me of this wish ...

dear blog ,

why is that so ? could it be the words that i used ?

do u noe that i have a shock ? a bigbig shock . pls gimme a warning before that happens, okay ?

maybe i still can feel a tinge of something . or maybe im just trying my last best effort to let myself not be unfeeling . i dun want to ..

:(

from ,

sadded me

why are things the way they are now ?

i dun deny that having misunderstandings are inevitable but , i always believe that aft clearing things up or doing explanation will be fine .. isn't it ?

or am i too naive to think that this is the way out ?

i normally tend to not explain things the way that i'm rly thinking

i dislike being misunderstood so i tried explaining .

nvm .. no pt saying over here ...

seeya , blog

Why did i try explaining so much .... cnt unds why

can i stop caring as much ?

as much as i want to do so , i noe that i'm not able to accomplish that .

like wad i've told rahman , i think that it rly is 2 ...

haix .

okay , i'm fine le .

i guess that i just nid to isolate myself for awhile

i think that it's a total of 5 posts this time round :x

i'm pretty sure that u wun see but this , happy bday py :)

Yes , everything is me ... everything me jiu dui le rite . Ur words dun match ur actions . Nvm . Just blame me if u feel beta . Though i might nt feel good as a result

It is okay . I shall not do any asking this wk le . Since i always do most of the initiative and asking and suggesting . In the end , i got more blamings and complains . I shall let it be le . No pt . Seriously .

Im wondering if u r actually blaming me .

Hi blog ,
I feel so weird nw . I noe it is normal for me to feel this way but i always cnt decipjer the feeling or why i feel this way :/ hhmmmmm . im crazy le .... aiyo

It has been such a long time since i last uploaded a pic in my blog .. i'm so sorry , blog :)

i love u , blog :):) love u so much for being here for me when i needed someone to talk to ..

i will cherish u , dun wry ...

anw , i'm loving the night now .

not that i'm gng for clubbing like anyone else but , just cos that my study mood is back , strong .

listening to some music thru earpiece again and trying to study , at least do a few questions now ..

i may be tired but im not so tired that i nid slp badly nw :))

nid to cherish this study mood and at least do a few questions .

i truly hope that i can accomplish this small task set by myself .

all th best !

c++ results aint out aft 3 wks .. wad could cause the delay ? i rly hope that nth goes wrong .

omt . the guilt is kicking in AGAIN . T.T

and idk why my plurks dun show those smses to sgbeat.

twitter works fine

i went to chk the website and removed plurk acc and put it back agn but to no avail . :(

i nid someone to scold me , i guess .

cos all the sadness seem to be stuck inside me and yet i cnt feel dem ...

i cnt feel anything .

i cnt feel happiness , sadness ...

i can only feel agony towards myself ...

and i'm so pathetic ...

i seem to be losing myself ...

i nid to zhen zhuo ..

i'm trying ...

u said it from YOUR pt and i told u from MY pt so that u noe that it is not as simple as ABC

it is okay .

i will just SHUT UP -.-

i will say nth ...

fair enough ?

i'm forever wrong to just say anything else ..

i am forever wrong.

i need to SHUT UP ..

happy ?

u have no idea .