im so gonna drown next sem. planning to take 7 modules. one lab that requires matlab plus many many lab reports while another module requires writing report as well :(

i am so tired but cannot fall asleep right now and my tears cant stop flowing...

will i ever get to hear that sentence again? im not sure... even with many people of the same situations as me, i feel o lonely.. feel so alone fighting this monstrous battle, all by myself...

sometimes, i really wonder how you have been. after seeing u in ntu that day, i really felt that u look sad. wanted to approach but the fear surged up and i just fled. lol. hope you are doing all fine.. hope you had a nice bday celebration ytd.

happy bday,cpy...

i dun wish to score b- in any of my modules, esp the toughest one, solids... :( i scored really low for my midterm cos i didntnoe where to copy the answers when they are just right in front of me. im really really.... speechlessly stupid :( sighs. else i could have passed. i lost around a total of 30 marks cos of that. seriously heartpain.. when this test is like 25% weightage. :( any drop in my mark will remove me from my current class. i really aim for a second upper but seems like my second lower cant even be maintained... oh god. please save me :( i rly want my gpa to be pulled up alot alot this sem but doubt that it can work.

i will change my status one day :) during the time when i think that the time is ripe :p ( i seem to talk like in some show hahahah)

thanks for entering my life. i think that's the greatest gift that i have in life. :) Despite all those unhappiness that i have experienced or experiencing now, im considered quite contented in my life. I do not deny that im being very disappointed with my mum or my studies but i can tell everyone that i will not give up. i just need some time to encourage myself and abandon those negative thoughts that include giving up. i do not like to give up and will continue to complete my studies the moment i've started on it. i really need to hang on.. guess im just getting used or trying to get used to failures and sadness inflicted by things or people. jiayou !

又是另一张不及格的考卷子。。。每个人都说第一题很容易做但是我却不会做。太笨了吧？：（ 幸亏的是，我做了最后一题。那题是大多数的人不会做或没时间做的。。。 ：（

hehe i love u :p

no idea why i am feeling so sad now. like there is no reason for me to...

it just seems like no matter wad i do dun help at all, no matter how hard i try. im such a failure...

sometimes, im just afraid that u will get tired of me as time passes and not treat me as good by den. u will just get tired of my forever complainings of feelinirunwell... lalala

i suddenly feel so lonely after yesterday. my phobia acted up again and i had alot of nightmares ytd though i only recalled two. i dreamt that i weren't feeling well along the street and no one bothered. not even someone who is closed to me. i noe that i'm thinking too much but....i really had my phobia back up again. i couldn't be happy no matter how much i tried today.
i actually cried myself to sleep ytd night after quite long. couldn't sleep and cannot remember what time i actually fell asleep. i kept wondering why i am feeling so insecure...

this feeling really really sucks and i actually felt that im making a molehole out of nothing... sighs.
where can i go on sunday after my driving lesson? it's too early and i dun want to go home cos i cnt do anything at home... who can actually keep me companion? it's ok. i think i can just walk around alone too...

why do i miss u so much :'(

i get jealous easily :x hehehe

to be frank, im still not feeling fine. beta, maybe. slightly beta, yes. very slightly...
im just frantically hiding my emotions so that i can smile and laugh with my friends. no point sulking in front of dem

u just made me feel so so awful. can i just stay out tonight ????? :(:(:(:(:(:(:(

the feeling of walking alone.. wait. im just thinking too much, am i ?

why do i feel so insecure and get jealous so easily ? this has never happen before ...