i think. i have e power to see some ppl's facade. or maybe. have e power to see if who is whose partner-to-be or current partner. oh my. tt's random.

but anw. i still think that life sucks. e more i look at some particular people, the more i think that people are all abt lies. which made me wonder if i'm a bad person. but i felt so much better to see good answers from my frens (: though i noe some are just kidding. LOL.
Back to topic. everyone is wearing a mask. it just make me feel that some ppl are just so hard to fathom. Thoughts deep down can actually be scary. sometimes, i just feel pain to think that xxx and xxx are just hypocrites but other ppl just dun seem to feel e same way as me. it's very obvious ! cnt u guys see? just wanna say "ouch" :/ call it human nature to be hypocrite? i hope not. i dun mean to keep thinking of the sad pts abt life but the facts just lie flat in front of me. i'm oblivious in e past. but now, i observe more than i speak. sometimes i'm just quiet. it's cos i'm looking at how fake some ppl can be. silent ppl are normally e more observant ones. i'm not very much into that category though. Putting those aside, i noe i have some good frens. but i just dun have e luck to be in e same cls as dem. i used to think tt my cls is a bunch of good peeps. now too. but not totally. because... ... (e uneasiness i feel towards someone while conversing wid the latter definitely goes to show something. )

no matter how much i detest the hippos in my life, i still strive to cherish wad i have. i'm a very fortunate person alr. i have ppl who love me. esp my parents. but it just ache me to think that life can actually be so complicated. and i just have to see those peeps mentioned above almost everyday during sch time. but anw, pardon me for thinking this way now. cos it's late and i tend to have emo tots in my mind when i'm tired esp at this hour. i always tried to think of the good points out of EVERYTHING bad. these includes incidents like when i'm being misunderstood. i tried to tell myself that it can be a lesson learnt or wadeva. but i just cnt bring myself forward to talk good things abt baddies. i cnt lie to myself. i just hope that people wun be this way but. if things were to go my way, it'll be called "fantasy".

but seriously, i'll try to cherish everything that i have now like i'd nvr b4. i used to let things be in the past but now, i will rly cherish my closer frens. and i rly tried my best to be in a much much much closer terms wid my current clique but... ...

anw. i'm ssoooo looking forward to meeting tofu, puppy and zheng yan ! :D:D plurk plurk! :D:D