still find myself stupid):

u n ur definition agn lolol.

weird ones at that :p

call it paranoid or wad.

i find it hard to believe ppl nowadays.

i tot i'm still able to believe.

but aft so many lies and broken promises.

i guess, i cnt trust as freely like i used to.

but i think, if u've managed to gain my trust, i shld be able to trust u like abt 80%?

ha :/

idk why this sudden feeling.

i dun wanna doubt ppl. it's tiring to do so.

but i'm paranoid, terrified to trust anymore

i still feel scared. tot that i'm alr fine, but i'm so wrong

i'm sooo looking forward to the end of the exams !

wanna go work. wanna earn money.

and wanna tell mum to stop working ):

at least for as long as my holiday lasts.

as for the work.... hmm, i need to source alr.

but idk where to find :x

HAHAHA. nvm. aft exams. will slowly look for them.

and i wanna learn driving ):

worse come to worst, i'll go learn it alone.

just dun get lost can alr. HAHAA.

and, i need to cont my current job )':

sory ah ! it's been stagnant for quite some time.

hadn't have the time for it.

exmas, fypppp.

ah ! so sorry ):

most imptly, i wanna sort out my thinking.

dey have all been in a mess, oh bother !

and.... i wanna go kbox xD

HAHA.

right now, i gotta get back to my revision :(

u nvr keep ur words.

the glimmer of trust and hope that i had for u, turned to nth now.

when u said u understand, dere's no longer a tinge of relief in me.

i guess, aft so many nonsense, i'm too tired.

will "recuperate" only aft my exams.

or maybe, i can strt doing now, without any thinking.

i believe that everything happens with a reason and

only happens to make us stronger.

i find it utterly meaningless to feel that this person is wrong.

just think wad u might be wrong at, and change.

even if u feel that most or even all the fault lies wid this person,

think agn.

u will most prob bear some responsibility.

and that's where self reflect comes into place. :)

i always wanted to do certain things and reject certain things.

but always changed my actions and opinions cos i felt bad.

now, i no longer felt as bad as i used to feel.

cos, instead of feeling bad, i might as well change myself or

find beta ways to solve the probs.

i dun deny that i always dun handle probs tactfully,

and sometimes, let my emotions get the beta of me.

but dun worry, i'm still growing up.

dun deny me of the chance to mature, change, and better myself

many, many conclusions :)

will maybe blog ab it aft my exams

no experience happen for nth.

6 more to go D:

i think alot,

cos i wanna change for the beta..

cos i'm being paranoid..

cos i'm thinking if i'm doing the right things currently.

had a chat wid jeremy while tking train to fren's house tdy

and i asked him abt my flaws :p

indecisive and straightforward.

haha ! i agree !!!

but i'm used to talking that way. heh :P

nvm nvm. this can be changed ^^ heh thanks for telling.

anw.. i had been wondering if i've been doing the wrong thing.

i wanted to convey certain message to u and told u abt it.

u apologised but continued doing it the nxt day..

wad's the pt :/

but well.. i rly hope that doing it the hard way can rly put the message across ur head.

i dun like such extreme approach.

most of the ppl whom i asked, told me to ignore u.

i tried but didnt rly do so all the times.

cos i had to tell u to stop saying it.

no choice .

this week is super hectic.

and more to come for the nxt 3 wks.

and i just heard that... we still need to do report aft we finished our exam.

i wanna work! HAHA

i rly wanna bade goodbye to fyp alr.

it's sooo tiring.

on a side note...

i need to prepare for one quiz, 2 lab tests, viva, report this wk.

hope i didnt leave out anything

and dere are testsss nxt wk too.

so tired. haha !

but must jyjyjy.

recognise how much a person can change?

maybe... i did ...

but it's only cos i want u to stop stop stop :/

u nvr change.

but u're as annoying as before

cher eng ah cher eng..

wad kind of feeling is that?

我宁可不做任何解释了。因为只会越苗越黑。。。

尝试说清楚自己的感觉，但你还是那样认为，那样认定一切。

我真的是无话可说了。 好心酸，好无奈。

不知如何是好。也许自己处理事情不妥当，

拖泥带水， 才造成今日的纠纷。

也许这对你来说是一种解脱，伤心的解脱。

以前，我有尝试接受你。

但我们经常意见不合，吵架。

要如何相处呢？我累了。相信你也是。

尽然你要再次的离去，那就去吧。

因为在你眼里，我总是认定你是错的。

总是这样，那样。。。

你会找到一个更属于你的女孩。

今天会关机。大家不必发简讯给我。谢谢

昨天的自我检讨，今天的决定，未来的问号。。。 。。。

am i doin the rite thing????

feel tired to explain for myself alr.

so if u wanna assume and jump into conclusion and be angry... ...

i duno wad to say alr

i wanna thank you for ... ...

being wid me when i needed someone

talking to me when i'm bored

:DD

thanks so much .