tdy is quite slack !!!! which is a good thing :p if only everyday is like this. but well, dere's busy times too ): had a super early lunch break at 12 !!!! can die sia. cos i need to work for 9 more hrs aft that w/o food. D:

everything feels so different. but i cnt expect things to be the same as last time. changes are bound to occur. maybe if fate comes, we might be on gd talking terms as last time. (though we're still talkin now) sometimes i just think back and i recalled all those gd memories. but as usual, it's no pt me thinking abt the situation now. cos only time can make everything happen agn. and it must all depend on u too :/

i'm suddenly being called back to work !! HAHA. was actually out and was thinking if i wanna come back. but i came back eventually. boss was like telling me that dere's 2 ppl off and one mc tdy. tried calling rea but she didnt pick up call. den he told me "since u requested to work on all full shift and requested to come back to work on ph, you might agree to come back to work. we might as well try asking u. i've alr put an '*' beside ur name. so when we need replacement, the first person that we would think of, is u." HAHAH omg. this is wad he told me ! should i feel happy? :p hee. i think i shld. i seriously dun mind being called back to work on a weekday like this !!!!! haha ! this is the first time i felt so happy coming back to work. i rly wonder why. it's not the work scope, not the ppl, and not the money too. though i rly wanna earn alot of money for some useful things, money ain't making me happy to work. i wonder why too. maybe it's cos i'm rly happy within and thus, i felt happy over everything :D or maybe my thinking rly did change to the positive. :)) . . BUT dere's one thing which i wanna change my thinking towards dem but idk if i can do so. i truly doubt that i can, cos it was alr my limit. i didnt think abt it, didnt lament nor bear grudges towards dem. it's just, a form of new phobia that has developed. maybe time can change, but i certainly dun wanna "taste" dem agn

everything takes time,

to change,

to forget,

to minimize,

and to get used to.

bad past ain't to be remembered.

i'm still trying to forget those past,

though they still haunt aft me.

but they dun matter anymore.

wad matters now is my present and future.

:)

hmm, i'll improve de. dun wry. heee.

kept hearing "what are words" during work.

it's such a touching song.

i scared that i'll feel emotional if i concentrate on hearing that song. D:

ahhh, stop playing it.

i scared i'll cry during work sia HAHa :/

i must keep cool no matter wad.
i must jy :(
sighs. cnt let such things happen agn.
RMBBBB !!!!! SR FIRST .
AND WARM FIRST T.T
SIGHSSS

i rly wonder when can i stop being so blur :(

it's pointless :/

i cnt help u laaaaa HAHAHA

u go contact ur own agency *shoo shoo*

it's more and more of a phobia

had been gng for loads interviews and application for jobs

wanted a job at rws or uss initially but they need 1 mth to process.

i cnt wait for so long:/

plus.. i might not noe wad will happen aft that 1 mth.

they might not accept me aft all esp when dere's sooooo many ppl applying for it !

kept wondering if i'll get into the 3rd interview for tdy.

hopefully i can !!!!

but when that happens, it means that i'll work for at least 45 hrs weekly.

dun mind i think.

since i'm soooo free :p

and thanks for pei-ing me for those interviews tdy xD hheeee

i lost a gd gd fren. sighs. but i guess, if it makes u feel beta, it's fine

i think i've hurt another person agn. :/

hmm, sorry.

i feel like such a sinner D:

never noe till u try. if u dun try, u'll regret it.

this is so true :3

hmm,

this is so weird.

i thought over it and questioned myself.

do i rly feel it that way?

i tried to stop myself from feeling that.

cos i dun want it to be another nice dream that i've built up

and it just tumble down..

cos it's just me.

only me

time rly flies..

i rly hope i can enter D: omgomgomg :/

it's another assumption that u've made.

do u noe that?

i'm starting to love my life agn.

i'm starting to love those frens ard me agn :)

i'm finally strting to feel happy agn

it's a happening day,

super tiring day of cos.

and interesting.

i duno if it's alright.

but it's alright to give out ba :p

my daily routine for now:

slp at 12-2 am.

wk up for nth at 3-5 am.

cnt slp for a while.

wk up at 7 plus am, 8/9 plus am.

still slpy but cnt slp

and stomachache o.o

so happy tdy!!!

last day of exam,

went out wid fren,

took pics,

chatted,

was treated frappe and fries,

chat on msn,

someone responded to my plurk !!!

xD

乖小孩。

不是怪 :P

wonders why i feel so empty now :/

cos u made me tired agn? HAHA

maybe i was wrong?

but dere's always a few reasons to the things i do.

pls stop ur assumption.

ty

if u say no that ur close kins nvr care abt u much last time,

den i shall care for u alot now.

i dun care, i dun want u to work.

for as long as my hols starts.

it's my turn to slog, not u.

i just dun want u to be tired.

ur super long hrs are killing u, i noe.

as usual, u care abt the family.

so, i am gonna care more abt u.

i shall hereby demand u to stop working.

want money, get it from me.