I feel naked, literally

Headache , giddy spells...
Kept feeling hungry bt no appetite to eat D:

Im still walking home now ... so tired .

hmm, im such a bad person

maybe , i shldnt have said anything and keep mute over EVERYTHING ...

i guess that i will be disliked

i think im falling sick soon..
kept having dry cough recently and feel cold easily too.
it cld be due to the cold weather...
and im having like poor appetite. one meal is sufficient to keep me gng for the day even if i didnt manage to finish it . lol

Unexplanable ..

Wad can i do ?

wad else can i wish for other than u being alright?

wad cld be beta??

i feel so awful bt i noe that i cnt drag it on ... ...

am i making the right approach?

am i being selfish?

wad will happen if i go get one now .. hmmm

well, it's half said..

my white lies are back

"are u feeling beta?"

"yesyes i am :)"

"are u alright? wad happened?"

"haha im okay laa :))"

this is the most boring cny ever LOL

as usual, i went to dad's side and stoned...

kept staring at my phone just to reply to whatsapp and smses

luckily ppl came to talk to me

else, i wld be the one spamming alot of ppl to chat wid me

and i actually wanted to jio frens out tmr to study tgt wid me...

anw, plan changed. gng out tmr instead

'nuff said . wad can i do ? ignore?

why was i so affected?

happy cny eve everyone !!

nice .. wad nice lies....

i nvr knew that someone can actually lie about such things.

to make urself seem beta??

have u wondered wad will happen when time comes?

ur lies will be uncovered and make u look so ugly..

thanks for lying to me all along ..

"appreciated" these cos they made me understand u super clearly

am i causing alot of miseries?
i just really duno how i shld react cos i nvr seem to be able to do anything correctly .
oh bother

Whywhywhy am i feeling so weird now . Matrix, r u responsible for this ??????????

This is so irritating . I can do the same question for over 10 times and not being able to get the correct ans . Instead, i got different answers wid each tries . Bravo .....

Some things are beta off as unsaid i guess...
Hurts bt no choice

i think that im a sinner ..

hmm .. :/

Prof said that first yr's gpa isnt impt as second and third yr's AU will b much more. By the fourth year, our gpa will b ard there . I wld agree wid this but i will still wanna strive for a much beta gpa for my second sem ... it seems like alot ppl are getting second upper class. I noe that i can get it too ... maybe a first class is too much to ask for . Im only aiming for a sencond upper. Just wanna up myself for one class ;) i noe i can do it ...

I enjoy being single now cos i dun have to worry abt hurting the one that is impt to me ... nor worry abt him making me tear and hurt and accusing me for the things i do . I dun have to face jealousy that im spending time wid my family and not having time for him . I can solely concentrate on my studies. How great can this get when i dun have to suffer more hurt ? Who noes that THIS could be due to the fact of this incident just like my poly third yr , first sem ??? Nah, not blaming like u wld ....

this is the FIRST time i mugged on the first week of sch and recap what i've learnt for the day itself daily ;)

feels so happy to have accomplished this.

if time permits, i will do the questions in the tb before lecturer starts teaching us about it ..

this rly makes me understand what the lecturer says muchmuchmuch beta :D

and i feel happy that bro clinched a biz deal from my fren ;)

thanks fren !

Lol . Senior said "it is only the first wk of sch and u guys alr mugged till so late" . Lol , i dun rly find it late actually haha . Only leave ntu three hrs later as planned . Guess i will reach home at 10pm today ... poor clothes . Sighs

the first week of sch is barely over and i can feel that time is running real short already :(

wonder why i always wanna fall sick when cny is nearing

sometimes, i rly think alot .

but i'm rly tired to think too much into words

can everyone stop telling me such things?

i just want to really concentrate on my studies

im aiming for a 4.5

and tdy is the first time that i look thru wad i've learnt today in lesson

lemme score real high, pretty pls?

my gpa rly sucks right now.

it sucks to be me but i'm still gonna strive

it rly is different alr lol

zen me ban ... ...

history ... wait . nope . it's history of other ppl ...

i'm rly trying ... but .... just dun wanna think abt it i guess ..

zzzzz

sometimes, i wondered to myself: if i can start my life all over again, how will i choose to do..

i guess, i might still wanna behave in almost the same ways as how i was before except that i need to be more observant and prevent certain unhappiness from occurring. i am actually quite glad for certain things that happened because they made me think..

however, dere are certain things that i feel that i should do instead:

1) be more observant and sensitive during my sec sch times

2) study alot harder in sec sch (but i wouldn't have known my current great friends if i did)

3) study harder in poly

4) to observe xxxx more first because that's a mistake that i wun wanna repeat else we could have been good friends now

5) to make things clear to pingyuan in the beginning and we might still be friends now? but me and his character clash as we always tends to voice out our opinions.. uh well, i still duno what could be better. just hope that u r fine with whatever you are doing now.

blabhblahblah .. cannot remember anything else now

anw, i feel that i should tolerate my brother because he cares for me. i need to be more magnanimous HAHHAA

i feel very touched and happy that he said "you are my sister leh"

just wish that you can be more ji dong though..