ytd was really a terrible night. initially, i was thinking if i should stay up for the night to see my results but was afraid that i might end up like the previous sem-- all sad and have no mood to sleep u[on seeing my poor results. thus, i tried to sleep but could not sleep at all. i laid there for two hours and more, feeling sadder and sadder... i really dont unds how can i make my mum angry that she gave me the cold shoulder. how could i do anything to agitate her when i go out early and reach home later than her recently. and if i reach home early, i tried to help out with the housework but the clothes weren't dry due to the heavy downpour recently.. i refrained from crying but could not stop the tears from flowing... i know i'm weak but i was really really really really devastated. over all the years, it seems as though im the only one getting the cold shoulder. i do understand that you are having bad mood from ur work but..... why me? why is it always me? what did i do? my stomach growled and i need food desperately...just to cheer me up. i opened up the titbit that i bought the other day and ate half of it but my mood just remained as sad... and someone is asleep.. there's no one to talk to.... i really felt very very very sad. only way to make me sleep was to on my mp3... i really cant imagine how i am going to sleep if my mp3 was spoiled... at the very next day, i on my comp and saw ppl's fb updates saying that their results improved. only then did i pluck up courage to check my results. expectation: qm: b-, solids: b-, thermal: b, complex: b, lab: B+. results: qm: b, solids:b+, thermal:b+, complex:b+, lab:b+. the only correct expectation was lab. this made me recall that i wished the previous night to not have any mod that has a score of b-. i even thought to myself "i won't be greedy. just no b- and the rest b but just give me one b+ cause i need my results to improve." my cgpa did improve but i wasnt happy at all... and after that, i proceeded to go work. while in the train, u asked me what happened. i was happy that u asked but when i was typing the incident, my tears just flowed and i felt so terrible... i didnt want anyone to see me crying so i didnt continue typing... well, i just cried again... so useless. :/