Never would i thought that my uni life would be so sucky. Initially when there was only me and my lab partner , i wouldnt need to hear all those complains from someone . There was no one trying to make her problems, mine. Though my lab partner has his shortcomings , at least he isnt scheming. Life was good with occasional clique outing. We spent our bday celebrations together. Life ....was good.

After the first sem, me and someone else noticed the bad behaviour of a certain person. We were upset and angry. But , that didnt lasted long. How can i even get angry with my friend for so long ?

It was after someone ran away that the mini clique fell apart. Someone tried to come closer to me. She succeeded because my lab partner practically heck care EVERYTHING. If only waiyu accepted the offer of this course. Sigh.. but.. i refrained from telling her everything because some part of me knew that she isnt at all reliable. She leaked out one secret that she forced out of me. Thats so sly. I hate it. She claimed that someone else was scheming. Yes , she may be slightly scheming but you won in your schemes. I dont even feel like facing you. I couldnt face you. I cant bring myself to. But sometimes when i saw u, i felt bad for ignoring you and tried to treat you nicely. Sometimes , it sucks to be me. I got all softhearted in front of my friends. But what about u ? You just fished out info from people around me. Thats the diff between us. And thats why , we cant be best friends. Not even close now.

I want to ignore everything. I want to be happy. But i cant be if i dont have my once-happy clique with me. I cant bring them together if they dont want to. I dont even feel like doing so. Im tired of trying. I just want to graduate. I want to work towards my goals even if that means taking up a part time degree. I will. But not yet. I have two upcoming papera. Focus on the present. Plan for the future. Ignore the past yet let it make me a better person.