I kept thinking about this recently......
If i really were to only take care of my family for the short run.... idk how i can even bear to take care of them for a while and then let them go back to fend for themselves at an older age...

At their current age... i alr bu fang xin about them.. sometimes... the kind of attitude i received and conflicrs... is nth if i can take care of them.. it just dont feel right for them to take care of me till i grew up and left them alone..

This reminded me of my grandmother.. all the kids grew up and stayed with their own family. Only her youngest son stayed with her. She often missed breakfast as she has no strength to go out to buy and there is no one to take care of her...

Thinking of this... how could i even bear to leave them alone...? Sigh...