i seriously dun unds why u r so childish ...

now i noe where i rly stand ..

so , stop self deceiving ...

it actually can hurt though i dun think that i can feel it anw

whenever i change my phone's ringtone , i had a hard time trying to recall the ringtone thereafter ...

cos the reason is simple .

lol

Sometimes , i rly find it tiring to love or like anyone ... ... it is like when u finally like someone , he will leave u . And when u finally think of making up ur mind , sth that ___ do will just hinder me in my decision . Who knows that i may stop liking totally one day ...
sometimes , i rly hate myself for changing my mind ... But , the reason is v simple . It is just that i became softhearted and felt that maybe i shld give it one more try . Or maybe i shld put in effort agn . Maybe that is good . Cos trying makes me give up . And giving up makes me more determined to stay on wid my decision . I rly wonder why i feel so happy seeing that sentence or a word , rather . Maybe it is cos that is the decision that has always been in my mind and yet i didnt wanna ack it . Perhaps . But truth is , i rly feel motivated now ...

Sadly , it is not a motivation to study . I still study but , i rly have this feeling that i wun even score at least a C for all my mods . So my gpa at the end of the day will b ultra cui . "Nice" job loh . Sighs .

thanks sir , u always have to affect my mood :)

yay . forget abt it :)

yeah ! i'm fine :)

like real ._.

this is so ironic ...

when i'm so in need of ppl, only my frens are here to keep my companion .

not even my bf is ard to console, encourage nor chat wid me .

worst still is , dere's not even a single msg ...

thanks so much man

rly thanks for treating me as invisible

I have sth to confess !! My mood swing is super scary recently . I go crazy and laughed tgt wid my frens but when im alone , i suddenly feel like crying though i tried real hard to curb it . At that moment , i kept thinking of u and my studies n went sad . When i see happy funny msges aft awhile later , i suddenly wanna laugh and suddenly tot of my frens and wanna laugh in the train . This is too much of a mood swing rite ??? I noe T.T wad on earth is wrong wid u ???? Omt

i cnt believe that mum's actually so petty ..

i was listening to music using ear piece and revising my work .

and she kept talking to me ...

i didnt notice that cos my music can kinda cover some bg noises ..

she got unhappy and said that i always nvr reply her ...

i rmb that i did tell her at times that i was listening to music and will most prob not be able to hear her ..

maybe i shld tell her everytime i listen to the music which wld be everyday ...

but that'd be too tiring .

that's one of the reason why i go out to study ... it's cos of this and cos hse is too comfy ..

and she's oso part of the reason to why i have to listen to music ...

why am i so useless ?

it's okay . i shall feel beta when i wk up

does ur sentence means that i'm hindering u in ur work ?

i might be ..

but if that is the case, why did u go aft me in the first place ?

and starting to talk lesser and lesser to me aft treating me so nice .

i unds that u r busy so i've nvr complained that u r busy .

nvr demand u to spend more time wid me

i tried to understand and even put myself in ur shoe to noe why ur thinking is so weird

but as usual, i'm not able to noe the reason why :)

aft trying so much , all i get was "you should understand that i was busy and tired."

it's precisely that i noe that u r busy and tired that i replied "maybe u tell them that u r busy ?" to "friend wanted to play mj after sch zz"

and once agn , wad i got was sth super not expected .

"not everything can be pushed off as and when u like"

i ignored that msg wid sth else but u came bak to argue wid me abt this thing

u said "do you know that how long i've nvr meet my friends ? i have been so busy to meet them"

i was thinking " wad ? i was just suggesting cos ur sentence sounded as if u r unwilling to meet dem" .

it was later that u told me that u were tired .

and it set me thinking agn . if u r tired , den just reject the outing .

else, just go for it and not sound so sian here ...

it's just a small case and we both tot of each other's thinking differently ...

dere is no pt arguing abt this ...

and i was shocked to see ur long long msg ...

sad to say , u only type long msg while arguing wid me

i seriously had a shock cos i didnt expect u to type such a long msg .

and when the heated conv ended, u replied wid this standard msg "you always have ur reason for ur actions. do not reply"

obviously i have my reasons for my actions rite ._.

if u put urself in my shoes, u MAY (or may not) noe that i was actually worried abt u when u said that u have mj session . cos the things that i tot were "omg . agn ? will u be more tired ? will u reach home v late agn ? u'll sure have lesser time to rest . i'd rather u to tk this time to rest and maybe meet dem nxt wk or wad since they r ur coursemate"

i nvr knew that such intention of mine wld be deemed as me trying to tell u to push off the outing .

everything's changed . i no longer have any expectation alr, i guess . or at least, not as much . i've expected for the worse . it's either i cnt tk it and pop that question or u be the one doing the 'bad guy' .

Went to sp to study tdy agn :)

so happy to have found ard 2 study buddies :D

i'm a happy gal tdy :)

was initially tired and super lethargic to study during the afternoon tdy ..

fren saw my sian face and told me to go buy coffee

i bought and instantly felt happy .

endorphin i guess xD

anw , opted for western food tdy .

fren's portion of chicken cutlet is suppppeeeerrrr HUGE . super worth the price of $3.50

highly recommended for someone who's hungry :)

i had grilled fish and added rice as my side dish . was hungry so i just ordered rice .

and i ended up not being able to finish it . HAHAH

started to "shape" the leftover and *oops* sry ! HAHAHA . i seldom play wid food :x

idk why i did that too . maybe it's cos i was too bored while waiting for fren to finish food x.x

used fren's phone to tk pic HAHAHA . idk why it's yellowish ! maybe it's cos of the light above me :x

aft that , told my another fren that i chose rice as side dish and the first thing she said was "wad !? rice ? u cnt even finish it w/o rice and u chose rice "

HAHA i cnt even rmb that i cnt finish my food la ! cos im normally able to finish it :)

anw , thanks for rmbing :D

why am i feeling so insecure ?

i kept feeling that everyone do not want to talk to me ...

:(

lol .

bravo ,cher eng

HAHA

i see this agn ! :))

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U said that i kept talking to myself in twitter n not to u . So shall i say that u only reply to ur frens and not to me unless i replied to urs ??:)

sometimes , i feel that the more ppl noe abt me , the more they may dislike me

so it's either that i BITE or that u stay away from me ...

beware , everyone HAHA

i nid a GC and now it isn't functioning that well :(

haix .

anyone have any idea on where i can repair it or buy a second hand for abt 50 bucks (the same price as i bought my current one) ?

:(

sighs ...

i nid it for my exams .

i nid it badly ...... .......

oh god

"your heart is the most powerful organ. It breaks, heals and becomes stronger again."

will mine heal ? maybe it will .. and i hope that it will

:)