i appreciate everything that u have done.

and i'm rly glad of that.

but why cnt be frens?

we can be super close.. as gd frens.

this is the first time i wished i were single.

cos, at least things wun be so complicated.

or that's a wrong thinking?

can things dun be so complicated, at least for once?

and you noe wad?

it hurts me to always be careful wid my words.

cos i can anticipate this coming.

i knew this would come.

and the nxt thing i noe, it'll be u gone..

from my fb fren list and msn and hp.

not from mine but urs.

just like last time.

so that's y i was so scared.

but my fear is so redundant.

cos history still repeats itself.

dere's nth i can do.

cos i noe of NOTHING.

ABSOULTE NOTHING to solve this prob.

it's just so difficult.

i'm just so stupid to ever solve this.

why cnt u understand?

u're 22 yrs old this coming 11/11

i just nvr thought that u would be gone agn so fast this time round

first time. it's cos of some misunderstandings.

i shouldn't have tried to help out that time

and the second is the same as the third.

just that i duno the reason to the second time.

i dun even dare to tell you why i was so sad when u called ytd.

i just sounded so moody.

super moody.

u will nvr understand how much this friendship meant to me,

as compared to the others.

yes, if it were other ppl, i'll definitely be super sad for sure.

but not as much as yours.

i duno. i duno i duno

i rly duno

i rly cnt understand

i'm rly at a lost.

you're a fren. whom i cherish so much

and i'm super touched by wad u did.

you stay at bukit panjang.

and even offered to send me all the way to my doorstep.

u traveled all the way to simei,

just to keep me companion.

you traveled all the way to pr,

just to accompany me for my bday

you traveled all the way to pr,

just to "sit" me to my "home"

i truly appreciate wad u did.

i noe you'll never read this.

because you dun even noe my blog link.

so, i guess, i'm just blogging this down to vent my sadness out.

i cnt be telling this whole story to any other ppl.

cos they have their life.

they have their things to do.

and...

i'm feeling so devastated now.

if things were to happen all over agn.

i guess the outcome would still be the same.

goodbye forever (?)

i dun wanna this