i tried appearing happy ((:

and i tried to be.

i dun wanna appear so emo in front of ppl alr.

i dun wanna reply things so emo-ly agn

bt, i'll continue typing emo stuffs when i'm rly emo,

to make myself feel beta, i tink :/

but sometimes, no ... most of the times..

sad memories just haunt aft me..

perhaps, it's a typical gal's mind.

i only noe that i was termed "happy-go-lucky" last time.

not that i dun have sadness.

i do have. actually, more.

but i just didn't let it affect me?

now i decided to think abt those probs.

to change and perhaps, have a beta idea of how to handle things when similar ones came out agn.

or maybe i'm rly a perfectionist..

though i dun think i am.

perhaps.. i expect beta results from myself?

and.. maybe those closer ppl to me..

perhaps.

perhaps.

perhaps.

who can cfm it for me?

no one.

only i can think abt it myself.

and cfm it.

sighs. it's rly giving me headache and giddiness to think abt all these !!

i hated myself so much for thinking.

but, i can tell myself that, i ain't thnking much abt the past alr.

it's a gd thing (:

even if i think,

it's only reminiscence.

to think how laughable things were in the past :x

i dun wanna think abt it alr.

but ... wheneva smses come from .......

it strted all agn x.x

one word to describe this situation or rather........ i'm in..

"weird"