i nid to get it back . haix ...

idk wad's wid me but i find it irritating.

i wasn't like this last time .

ever since that incident, i freaking hate stalkers.

ever since that incident, i can't tolerate myself to feel bad over little things

ever since that incident, i wun do this and that.

hate it .

3 ..

nope, is 4 .

i noe u wun be seeing this .

i noe that this issue may seem like quite a while ago (or maybe not).

i noe that saying anything else wun make things beta.

i noe that saying anything wun make u feel beta

i noe that you wun be believing me but,

i just wanna say.

i want to apologize though i noe that it's no use doing so.

i just want to bare my heart out though that i noe that u wun be seeing nor believing wad i said.

i noe that i didnt handle this issue well but i rly didnt mean to hurt anyone.

i tried making things clear but maybe not clear enough.

but i rly rly tried my best to salvage things.

but i still cnt.

i dun like to betray my own feelings so that's why i tried to tell u how i felt back den.

nvm. u wun believe nor read this anw.

i'm sorry ... .. .

vincent's dad came to PM me in fb .

and i tot of his son agn .

ah sighs.

i wanted to ask if they are still doing well but , i scared i will accidentally make them recall of the sad things.

it's been like 1.5 yrs le .

hope u r still doing fine up dere .

i noe many ppl miss u .

haix.

but i hope that ur family members will be beta , rly hope so from the bottom of my heart .

*prays*

ppl lament when things are gone when they nvr cherish.

and it's no pt or no use for u to keep harping over it.

me and xx were waiting for this grp of ppl.

during this super long wait, we sorta chatted.

me: they are taking so long to reach . *:(*

xx: ya. the results should be out alr.

me: har? wad results?

xx: now is alr july. so the result slip should out alr.

me: O.O? HAR? wad result is that?

xx: ur bro should received the results alr i think? how did he fare?

me: har? *thinks* uni results u mean? idk. didnt ask him.

xx: oh. *haha*

den aft that when they were playing pool,

xx suddenly approached me and said

xx: u shld be prepared for ur uni alr. u dun have to choose ur courses during the first yr which is good.

me: oh o.o why so random !? LOL

gosh. random rite ! LOL

sometimes i rly wonder why i kept saying "i'm fine" and "it's okay" when i noe perfectly that things ain't fine !?

i'm obviously affected by it/dem but i just smiled at ppl, feeling sad.

it's not that i'm putting on a facade.

it's just .. .. idk how to say.

sometimes, i just questioned myself, issit cos i dun want anyone to worry abt me?

or issit just cos i'm too used to saying "it's okay" that i'll feel weird by not saying that?

someone just told me "you're always giving in". this sentence made me shocked. am i?

do i? i dun think so. i do not know. i have no idea. i doubt so?

weird.feeling.

i'm still keeping that envelop. maybe i shld .. ... . LOL

i feel so lethargic the whole day tdy.

must stop it le.

MUST slp early and do my things the nxt day diligently.

time is running super super fast recently ! D:

gosh, i need to plan my own time.

had been gng out and didn't spend my time wisely.

i need to learn for my test,

to check out on my schedule

and.. ... CALL !!!

ahh, other than that, idk alr x.x

mum: how do i delete this photo?

me: go "options" and den "delete". if u want to do any editing, just press "options" can alr.

mum: okay.

aft 30 sec,

mum: how to delete this

me: option, delete?

mum: dun have delete

me: oh, just go "back" and "option", "delete"

mum: where?

*shows mum how*

after 1 min,

mum: den how do i delete this pic?

me: "option", "delete"?

mum: dun have.

me: *looks at the phone and stunned*. have o.o. here, "option", "delete"

OMG MUM AH X.X HAHAH SOTONG !

gosh. wad have i said/done? D:

if you love someone, u'll be thinking of ways to cherish the person and trying to make him/her happy rather than saying hurting words, ain't it?

dere are certian things which i rly rly wanna noe but idk how to ask or how shld i go about hinting it?

while gng out for brunch wid mum tdy, i was talking to her abt some customers.

dere was once this maid (idk if she is Philippines or Indonesian) who came to the info counter.

the first thing that she said was "ni hui jiang hua yu ma?" .

i was stunned LOL

she came and asked if i knew chinese and her command of chinese sounds sooooo perfect !

haha ! when she walked away, my colleague told me, "she's so cool!"

i agree !!!

and another customer was from china.

he came to my counter and disputed whole loads of things abt his dongle.

he complained that the speed was soooooo slow and he could not dl any movies.

had alr advised him that the speed of the MM was only 2 mbps

and he obviously cannot dl those movies from 3rd party software.

advised him to upgrade the speed to 7.2 mbps and he dun want.

he complained that he could not even use the dongle but when i checked his bill,

he had a usage of average 60GB monthly !

and he complained that the device is spoilt.

told him that we dun service the dongle and he wld need to bring the device down to the service centre but he dun want oso.

LOL. idk wad to do to him sia.

was creating an SR regarding this issue and he complained saying "i am trying to talk to you and u r doing ur own things dere. "

LOL, sir, it is u the one who dun wanna do anything abt ur device.

u want to terminate w/o ETC but my manager told me that she wldn't waive any ETC for such an unreasonable customer like u.

and u want to dl all sorts of movies w/o wanting to upgrade ur plan.

if u u/g, i can give u discounts off ur sub charge.

but u dun want any of the offers.

wad can i do o.o

iduno why i suddenly feel so emotional.

suddenly thinking of alot of things.

if i could turn back the time, wad would i have done?

maybe i'd have done the same things all over agn?

or maybe i'd have ignored everything like i used to.

no pt saying this as i could nvr have turned back time.

if i could, at least i can try to reduce ppl's sadness to the minimum.

how is everyone?

how are u?

how are u and u?

and u..

and YOU.

everything happens for a reason. so if u blame on things that happened rather than thinking about the cause and even remedy for it, idk wad to say.

sometimes, i just think of certain ppl. of wad wld happen if i didnt make this particular move..

i cnt turn back time, i noe :)

i wish all of u the best..

idk wad i want but i always loves thinking back at my past.

more of those happy times and oso, bad times which i kinda lament. :)

LOL !

ah, it's been soooo long since i last blogged !

as usual, many things happened and idk where to start talking from.

but well, i hope that everything will be fine.

on a side note, i miss my old workplace.

i dun want my frens/colleagues to leave !!! miss dem sia D:

do you know that the things that u did and said are still etched in my memory?