sometimes i rly wonder why i kept saying "i'm fine" and "it's okay" when i noe perfectly that things ain't fine !?

i'm obviously affected by it/dem but i just smiled at ppl, feeling sad.

it's not that i'm putting on a facade.

it's just .. .. idk how to say.

sometimes, i just questioned myself, issit cos i dun want anyone to worry abt me?

or issit just cos i'm too used to saying "it's okay" that i'll feel weird by not saying that?

someone just told me "you're always giving in". this sentence made me shocked. am i?

do i? i dun think so. i do not know. i have no idea. i doubt so?

weird.feeling.