HAHA this is funny .

i saw this from one of my fb's closed grp .

one of the student was like wanting to extend lesson cos one of the lesson on wed is cancelled.

i still rmb how my frens in poly / sec sch wanted to pon lesson or be so happy that lesson is cancelled .

this is ironic :P

you always said that i am not u and thus , idk wad u r feeling .

but do u have any idea that i've always been trying to put myself in ur shoes that i tried feeling how u r feeling ?

so that i will consider ur feelings and try not to make u unhappy .

but apparently , i'm such an useless person that i failed to do so .

cos u're still unhappy .

shouldn't we try to stay happy no matter wad happens?

u noe that such things are inevitable .

shouldn't u kan kai ?

wait . i've told u before but u kept saying that i'm not u and duno wad u r feeling .

like i've said , it's rly not as if i dun wanna meet u .

i noe that if i'd me , i'll definitely understand that u need to study , need to work.

when i was super free previously , i understand that u need to work and tried to encourage u when u feel stressed up / sianned while working .

i told u that i understand and tell u to jiayou while working .

i've nvr complained that u're busy .

but before i started sch, u alr feel down and even emo cos u said that we'd have lesser time to meet .

thus , i told u that i'll try to find time out but i'll definitely be busy cos i have sch and i want to study hard as well .

still , u emo .

idk wad to do and felt lousy .

i always felt so down when u r feeling down as well .

i tried to cheer u up but u always gimme short replies and sound down .

i rly rly rly duno wad to do .

but when my sch start , u kept saying that i'm busy .

yes , i agree . but i'm not as busy as u r .

so , i said "you are busy oso ma"

i always have this naive hope that u'd at least say "jiayou" to encourage me .. at least one "jiayou" but i've nvr ever heard this word from u before .

but , it's okay .

i just hope that u'd understand that i'm busy wid my sch work as well .

but apparently , idk if u do .

cos we were supposed to be meeting at 4 tdy . u were aware that i have alot of things undone .

so i suggested meeting u at 4 and maybe leave at ard 9+ cos i have to wk up early for sch tmr and i'm rly feeling stressed up .

talking abt stress , i was feeling stress a few days ago and u called me .

hearing that i didnt talk much on the phone , u emo agn .. sighs .

u noe , i felt so bad when u emo ?

that i have to call u back and abandon the thought of continuing my revision.

oh , back to wad happen tdy , after hearing me say that i need to go off early , u said that u'd rather me stay at home and study since we will only be meeting for ard 4 hrs only and u dun want me to waste my time travelling .

when i heard this , do you noe that i felt so relieved ? for a moment , i tot that u understand ..

but on the other hand , i rly tried to chiong my revision , bearing a tiny thought that i'd still be able to meet u .

thus , i went to prepare myself and smsed u at ard 4, asking u if u want me to come out .

cos if u do , i'm always ready to leave my hse immediately and meet u at ard 5.30.

at most , i'll leave at a later time .

at most , i'll leave at ard 10+

still , u told me to stay at home but ur tone sounded sian obviously .

u noe that i rly felt bad ?

i'm in a dilemma .

i wanna meet u but i rly have work left undone .

u told me to stay at home but u sounded so sad .

i rly duno wad to do nor say .

for a moment , i foolishly hope and wish that u'd rly understand that me being busy and not meet u is inevitable and u will NOT emo .

cos wheneva u emo , it'd soooooo affect me that i'll do the same thing.

and u noe , aft that msg at ard 4 plus , i cnt concentrate studying .

and for a moment , i wished that i had insisted meeting u so that i'll meet u and not stare into space blankly , for hrs .

i do not wish to compare , but i see other couple encouraging each other and seem so happy tgt (at least on the surface).

i noe that u do treat me well but , maybe i just expect more ?

maybe i jsut expect u to be abit understanding and not emo .

i felt so bad seeing u like this .

and when u said "i have wasted my day doing nth" rly made me feel so bad .

it's not as if i dun wanna meet u .

and i noe that u would never ever read this post and noe wad i'm thinking .

and i'd never noe wad i shld be reflecting to u .

idk ,idk , idk .

wad shld i be doing ???

i rly have no freaking idea .

dere are alot of things which i wanted to say and yet , i duno where to start from and wad to begin wid ..

ah , i have alot of things to be accomplished ! D:

i need to do my tutssssssssss !!

i always go to the tut classes , feeling clueless .

guess i'm too slow to understand.

i will keep practising and hope that i can do those questions and when i ask questions , i will understand dem v quickly ! D:

why aren't ppl telling me the truth or telling me things of wad they think ? :(

ever since the strt of the sch ,

i find myself getting tired and hungry easily

but i think i MAY be getting used to it tdy cos i didnt feel hungry that fast alr .

and i rly feel like falling asleep in the lecture.

i need to try to stay awake (wait . i'm alr trying ><)

HAHA . i dun wanna or like to slp during classes ..

D:

ah , jy !

i'm so slow .

it's till now that i just realized that most poly and jc students have a big diff .

my brain still heven process and they have alr done out the answers..

bravo, cher eng

hahaha .

omg . i'm dying soon ! D:

everyone is busy mugging when only the first wk of sch has just passed.

and some others have alr mugged on the first week of sch .

and i mean , mugged hard o.o

sometimes, i actually have this naive thinking in my mind .

i always felt that , if i were to treat ppl the way that i want dem to treat me , they will change their attitude towards me .

let's say , if i want ppl to be more patient wid me , i just need to be more patient wid dem and they may do the same thing to me .

for a moment , i wished that by being more patient to dem , they wld think this way : since she is so patient to me , why cnt i be patient to her as well ? and eventually, they will be nicer to me .

i noe i'm blur and slow and stupid (so that's why , i need ppl to talk slowly to me .. but of cos not that slow till the extent that i will fall asleep HAHA. )

idk if this will work . or maybe it wun . *thinking*

but even if it wun work , i will still try to treat ppl nicely

only had a one hr lesson tdy!

was supposed to go home straight aft 10.30 but ended up having brkfast wid frens in the canteen

checked email and realized that my ezlink card can be collected alr .

went to fren's hall to slack for awhile and

den proceeded to student service centre to collect it ! :DD hee so happy .

fren wld be buying a present for our exclassmate and will b giving to him .

we actually planned to not chip in and buy the present separately but aft that , decided to share the $20++ gift among the both of us .

zy went to ask sq if he wanna chip in as well, so that we wld each pay slightly lesser than $10 .

but , sq went to ask another 3 ppl if they wld like to chip in along wid us .

in the end , the gift is shared among the 6 of us x.x

bought sth else for my another fren as belated bday :x haha . cannot say anything much cos she may see this .

and , i was telling my mum that , for the 3 yrs in poly , this is the first time i went out wid my fren to choose presents cos i normally only chip in and that's all HAHA

i'm trying hard to understand u .

i'm trying hard to put myself in ur shoes.

i'm trying hard to give explanation for ur feelings

woo! electives ! here i come agn !!!!

haix . wad can i say ?

i have sch and it's not that i went out to play wid frens .

me being busy can make ppl moodless.

wad is this .

what do u guys look for before getting into a r/s?

looks ? personality ? feelings ? or even , if this person make u feel comfortable.

if this person A is, lets say, super fat and ugly but let u feel v happy wid and this person B is super pretty but has some attitude prob .. which one would u choose ?

maybe some ppl will choose person B and think that he/she can try to change person B .

for me , wad most impt is to be able to get along well with that party.

if this person quarrels wid u often as frens , how on earth will u be able to be tgt wid that person ?

likewise, if u cannot understand wad this person is trying to convey in most of his/her sentences, how are u guys able to communicate.

i've experienced both before.

as much as i would like to accept/continue, i cnt .

also, i dun look for someone that's holding on to some super high positions .

so long as he is willing to work hard, i'm v happy wid it alr.

but things , are always not as easy as ABC.

sometimes, ppl or situation tends to complicate matters.

i want to solve things but things are always go out of my hand.

take ur matter for instance.

i admit that i didnt make things clear in the first place.

you come into my mind at times, though not as often alr and i wonder, how would things turn out to be if i were to say things out clearly in the first place.

but , at the back of my mind, i noe that things wld still be the same as now .

maybe it's beta for the both of us .

and you , i told things to u alr and all i need was time to consider and try and think but u dun get it, or didnt want to get it ?

that, i cnt say for certain cos i've no idea as well.

i wonder how things are gng for u .

but this rly affected me , till i experienced that slpless nite .

but when u get to noe wad happened, u didnt cheer me up.

rather, you made me feel worse.

i noe u feel bad too but , you didnt try to at least cheer me up.

just two words "cheer up" wld be v sufficient but that nvr come out from ur mouth.

maybe i expected too much from you .

i need my pillar but , dere seem to be none anymore .

where have they gone ?

did i chase dem off, one by one ?

perhaps :)

but , no matter how ugly things become , i'm v certain that things will turn out for the better.

i believe that at least i can try to change the outcome .

if i were to tell myself "i cnt do it . just forget it . just let it be" for every ugly situation , dere wun be any beautiful picture .

i cnt be "falling" over every obstacles and not trying to pick myself up and getting myself injured w/o anyone seeing it .

but , i just need some encouragement to give me that extra "push" and den , i can advise myself to give it , one more try

my mind is in a turmoil now .

forget it .

electives, here i come. but which one of u is willing to lemme in ?

all i want is , encouragement .

but when i feel down , all i received was stress

issit so difficult to understand and put urself in my shoe , rather than telling me to put myself in ur shoe when i always did ?

if time dun permits, just let it be since schedule is fixed.

sighs . idk wad to say .

i dun wanna quarrel and i noe that u dun want too .

u have ur own thinking , and i have mine too .

how should i put it to let u understand ?

and thanks blog for listening to my rants.

seeya

my pillar of support are always gone , aft some time

was browsing thru twitter and found a few things about virgo that's interesting and kinda true !

you will not be able to judge a virgo easily as they try their best hiding their feelings and often succeed in this

For virgo, ideal companions are those who appreciate love shown through considerate and helpful actions rather than romantic gestures

Virgo, are generally reticent when facing with anything or anyone new. However, once they feel comfortable, they can talk up to a storm (very agree wid this ! ^^)

The difficult part of having a virgo partner is that this sign is introvert in nature and so you cannot make out what is in his/her mind

As a virgo, you may be sentimental but you're far more practical. You choose with your head before your heart

Virgo are usually cleaner, healthier and tidier than the rest of us and they are patient. (LOL. healthier!?)

Virgo appreciate a direct and tactful lover, prizing honesty and openness over outwardly outlandish flirting styles

As a Virgo, your temperament pushes you to get along with any sign, although some of them will later prove to be dangerous for you

When a Virgo falls in love, he or she really means it . The trouble is, though, that the Virgo knows it, but you don't

Virgos are very modest, and hate blowing their own trumpets. Even when they win accolades and awards they'll prefer to keep quiet. (sure not ? HAHA. i will noe when i win but i doubt that i will ! :P)

i dun like to tell my bro which notes i've printed out or books that i've bought cos he'd say "this is not useful de"

i went to the popular and the book that ive bought is inside my syllabus and my senior highly recommend it cos he said that the exam questions will come from that book and he's a scholar o.o

it's not that i dun believe my bro, but it's that me and him are not studying the same course T.T

but wadeva it is , i've alr bought and printed out the notes / book le .

will be studying dem when lecturer go thru the chapters.