i feel so empty inside me now .

and ironically, i feel so lonely now .

it's not cos i dun feel the presence of anyone beside me now ..

it's just , i felt so empty inside out .

on e other hand, phone is seemingly working fine aft the repair but when i restarted my phone , the issue still remains .

maybe i shld monitor for a few more days .

i'm just so tired of gng bak down to request for repair again cos the sla is actually 1 wk rather than 1-2 days as claimed from dem .

i need my phone's cam for my sch work ..

and now, the wifi and mms ain't working well ...

i rly wonder why .

luckily someone is dere to hlp ..

and this made me ponder why someone else is always dere for me and u aren't ..

i noe that i always dun expect much ..

i just want u to be dere , (not always physically) when i rly need someone .

sometimes, u r dere but u always replied me in such tone that sounded equivalent to u being absent ..

the feeling is just so not explainable that idk hw to express out how i'm actually feeling ..

right now , we are both busy wid sch work .. it cld be a blessing in disguise as u can no longer say that "u r busy" though that is the truth because u r busy as well ..

i can feel so much relieved from the feeling of being "accused" of not accompanying u and making u feel as if u r single/ feeling the sense of loneliness, no different from the past .

this made me recall wad u said previously ..

it still hurts, u noe ?

maybe, i'm still fated to feel lonely after all, like wad i've always felt :)