i had been experiencing mixed feelings recently.

happy cos of sth ... :x LOL! secret xD

and sad cos of sth .... secret too.

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hope it wun blow.

but well, both sadness and happiness are due to sth. no, it's someone x.x

ttsskkkk.

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is it so hard to be frens?

tofu told me to clarify things wid u.

i wanted to. but how??

wadever i said will make a similar outcome.

so wad's the pt?

i got happy suddenly and sad suddenly cos of ....

wad's the pt too?

everything revolves ard u.

wad's the pt too ???

cos i noe, i wun be talking to u.

no, is u wun be talking to me.

to be frank, i rly miss those happy days talking abt a lot of things wid u.

i rly cherish this gd fren, though ... ...

though i rly dislike ur temper.

u're like a bomb timer.

the thought of u exploding anytime,

rly makes me withdraw from telling how i feel, sometimes.

but sometimes, u kept making assumptions that i'm not thinking abt how u feel

or wun feel sad over this thing.

this assumption rly, truly made me feel sad.

cos it's like, to u, i'm such an unfeeling person.

i hate to create another of such sad post.

but i.. rly need to let all out.

i noe, no one will read this anw (:

so it dun matter if i were to say a lot of things.

ytd (i think), my bro called u and mentioned ur name over the phone

do u noe that, the feelings that i felt are sadness, fear and memories are all overwhelming me.

and LOLOL. i think i was crazy alr. cos when he called u, i was like abt 3 m (?) away from him only.

and i cnt believe that i strained my ears at where i was sitting to try to see if i can hear anything -.-"

well, i couldn't but could only hear someone talking :x

i seldom get so affected by someone for this long.

i think, if my this fren mia wid the same reason as u now, i wun even feel this way.

though i noe that my fren wun . HAHA :x

okay. i shan't talk anymore. cos i'm rly feeling super emotional now :/

gd nite