was at MDC the whole day these few days.

and my frens kept hearing the cat's meowing sound coming out from the "oil room" (i forgot the name) the whole day and went in to explore.

i didnt noe the whole story as i was out to buy food for frens.

returned and heard that they rescued the cat from that room.

it's placed inside a bucket and is shivering D;

omg. poor thing.

it must have been scared stiff :/

it's gonna be a new yr soon.

dere are many gd and bad things happening this yr.

i nvr regret knowing anyone.

including those that made me sad constantly.

i wanna stay happy and am trying to be happy.

but i duno why i kept thinking of certain things today.

on the mrt and i cnt even fall asleep while trying to nap.

well, i rly need to let go of those unhappiness.

but some ppl, some things, i cnt let go.

i still feel hurt but i rly hope i wun keep thinking of them.

at least i'm trying not to :)

kinda finished my fyp assembling. will upload the pic tken soon

the standing aider (wheelchair) looks rly cute xD

it rly looks like it's for those little kids to sit on :x

i rly hope everything'll be beta for u.

and i noe u wun be reading my blog anymore.

i noe i cnt contact u anymore.

and i noe that i shouldn't.

but, i rly wish that everything will be beta for u in 2011.

my digestive system, body and everything are screwed up :/

i can go w/o food for 9 hrs and dun feel hungry.

and i slept so little recently and cnt fall asleep when i was super tired.

and, my brain kept thinking of nonsense.

and, i kept feeling bad and sad for little little things.

oh great D:

if this is always fated to happen, den wo zhi hao ren ming le.

i'm soo tired tdy.

spent 14 hours in sch and just reached home not long ago. (less than 30 mins ago)

was too tired to look out my way while walking.

i think that the road's clear of cars anw.

and well.. you said "xxxxx". you were the one who said it :/

i heed it okay.

and i did do that when i'm feeling beta.

but well, still, it's xxxxxxxxxx :/

hmm. it's not a gd thing to noe me anw.

i always do or say things that make ppl sad.

if u feel beta doing this, den go ahead ba.

i wun wanna deny ppl of their "road of happiness" anymore.

not feeling good tdy.

so pardon me for this post.

this post isn't meant for anyone to understand anw.

so long as i noe wad i'm saying and typing.

so long as i think that you'll be happier.

all the best.

dear blog,

i think that humans are pathetic

and know not to cherish others.

i'm pathetic too.

always so dumb, so stupid

and thanks for saying that i'm silly instead of stupid.

cos it sounds so much beta (:

to be frank, i duno how to carry on wid this post.

dere are just so many thoughts that i wanna say, but duno how to.

wad i can say is, you rly still dun understand me.

i'm so disappointed.

things got out of hand.

just stay out of my life.

i dun need such a ppl like u.

and i dun wanna keep thinking nor saying negative things abt u.

it's not that i like to say.

it's cos, u suffocated me so much that i need to let it out.

u left me wid no choice.

and kept deeming and accusing me,

just cos of one reason:

u dun understand me at all

signing off...

dear blog,

i think that humans are pathetic

and know not to cherish others.

i'm pathetic too.

always so dumb, so stupid

and thanks for saying that i'm silly instead of stupid.

cos it sounds so much beta (:

to be frank, i duno how to carry on wid this post.

dere are just so many thoughts that i wanna say, but duno how to.

wad i can say is, you rly still dun understand me.

i'm so disappointed.

things got out of hand.

just stay out of my life.

i dun need such a ppl like u.

and i dun wanna keep thinking nor saying negative things abt u.

it's not that i like to say.

it's cos, u suffocated me so much that i need to let it out.

u left me wid no choice.

but kept on deeming and accusing me,

just cos of one reason:

u dun understand me at all

signing off... ):

dear blog,

i think that humans are pathetic

and know not to cherish others.

i'm pathetic too.

always so dumb, so stupid

and thanks for saying that i'm silly instead of stupid.

cos it sounds so much beta (:

to be frank, i duno how to carry on wid this post.

dere are just so many thoughts that i wanna say, but duno how to.

wad i can say is, you rly still dun understand me.

i'm so disappointed.

things got out of hand.

just stay out of my life.

i dun need such a ppl like u.

and i dun wanna keep thinking nor saying negative things abt u.

it's not that i like to say.

it's cos, u suffocated me so much that i need to let it out.

u left me wid no choice.

but kept on deeming and accusing me,

just cos of one reason:

u dun understand me at all

what should be the right approach?

talking does not help anymore.

we'll always revolve around the same topic, over and over agn.

even if it means me tellin u not to.

it dun help, talking to someone who dun understand me at all.

maybe i shouldn't say at all but, dun understand me quite a fair bit.

i just wanna let bygones be bygones.

why aren't you letting me do it? :/

maybe i shouldn't say abt ppl much :X
but i will still vent sometimes :P
by den, i'll still say dem :x
just wanna refrain from saying too much.

cos sometimes, saying anything dun even help.

even if it means saying to the guilty ppl

change needed :D

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE !!!! xD

think positively.. :D

it's all thanks to u being petty that i got it back. LOL

a blessing in disguise?

though it's in a bad condition (NOTE: you said that it's in top condition. bull shit ): ),

i'll still love it.

:D

and will use it to the fullest :D

i need more quotation for fabrication currently !

and need to edit report.

the others, title block and exploded view :D

caught "the nxt 3 days" tdy wid fyp mates.

the show is still so-so.

but i find that the police are quite stupid :x

though evidences are against her, cnt u guys just investigate deeper? ):

but well, if they did, dere wun be such a show LOLOL.

past, off wid time u go.

dun wanna see u agn.

i can only laugh at u :D

but, not gonna fall for those stupid tricks agn.

hmm, i'm so envious of some ppl ):

sometimes i rly felt like hating myself.

i just cnt bring it forward to sever friendship wid anyone.

and waiyu, i'm sry but i replied. LOLOL

cos i rly cnt stand him saying all those stupid and crappy things.

like "Since you have DRAWN the lines so clear..."

and true enough, he dun understand me well.

but, i can oso say that he dun understand ppl's feelings well.

i'm sure that if you tell anyone to stop doin sth and they continued, you'll be angry or at least,

feel pissed or wad.

but he duno.

he just continued.

and , u can tk all back for all u want.

cos u noe, i dun want dem.

and i dun even have a need to use them

and i dun even want to use them

and i dun even ... ... sighs.

i hope, i wun get to write any emo posts abt u, or u anymore,

to add on, sometimes, i rly duno wad to say abt u.

it's cos when ppl stand back and think abt u, all those little little negative things come out.

things like, ppl say a certain word and u use the same certain word.

it's fine i noe. but urs is, u used it w/o knowing the meaning.

and used it wrongly.

ppl feedback to you abt ur typing style,

saying that it's too formal.

i agree and when u asked me, i said that i agree wid ur frens.

okay, u changed.

but u changed it into a style so weird that i dun even understand.

it's not formal, but vvvvvvv singlish.

and from wad vin said, it's broken english.

hey, informal dun means talking lidat.

it means.. (from your style), not talking like...

sighs. forget it :x i duno wad you typed last time. dun rmb alr.

i didnt mean to blog abt u tdy.

but it's aft you type those smses,

that i think that i shld clarify a date to return u.

since you want it back.

to be frank, i've nvr ever wanted to tk it back from you.

cos "things given to u, it's urs"

but since you wanna be so petty, den i shall tk it back too. LOLOL.

i told you that we're frens, though someone told me not to be fren wid u (:P).

and told you not to say those things agn.

and as usual, you said one whole chunk of words that i kept trying to convey to u.

k la, i dun wanna say abt these anymore. nor do i wanna think abt them.

i rly want them to fade away wid time.

still, i wanna ask. am i rly softhearted??

cos i rly felt bad when i saw him walk away that day, although i felt angry too.

and i just cnt help it but reply (but aft a day of ignoring totally, :P)

aiya, in short. i'm stupid. rte? )':

forget it forget it. :x

i must look forward to my fyp only.

*focus focus*

i hope it has rly come to an end .

and i rly hope u meant wad u say this time round.

did i do the wrong thing?

i dun like anyone.

so wad if anyone confess to me ):

i wun like u.

was i overreacting?

maybe i was :/

at least, i should have a short chat?

it's like u came all the way down...

i should at least say thanks.

but i did say previously.

but i did tell u not to do the same thing agn

but i did tell u to ask me first.

but i did say i wasn't free.

but i did react badly previously (as in... kinda got angry)

but i was more of being scared last time.

this time, i was rly angry till i cnt even talk properly when i saw u.

wait correction. i didnt even look at u.

cos i didnt want to.

and... didnt dare to? :/

and all i could say was

"you come for wad?"

"if dere's nth else, i'm gng off alr. not free"

ya i noe i sounded super straightforward and harsh

but that's the only solution to u.

previously, i talked nicely.

i said "pls dun do this agn."

but things still happen.

so well, cnt blame me for doing things to harsh

i didnt wanted to anw..

i noe i've hurt u :/

aft calming down.. i actually felt remorseful and...... felt that i'm overreacting.

but..

talked to waiyu :DD

and rly felt beta..

and....... thanks for saying i'm not overreacting xD

that's wad i need to noe, right now i guess.

his fren asked me out tmr..

and i was still angry at that time.

i said "if he is coming, i'll go home straight"

but if i weren't angry at that time, i think i'd still have said the same thing.

to be frank..

at first i was kinda irritated by u.

but idk why but still tried to give u chances (to talk to u nicely ONLY)

cos i didn't want to keep ignoring ur sms.

i replied short replies.. and didnt reply all.

cos i TOT that u would reduce on the msg.

but if u did, i'll slowly feel fine talking to u..

and will reply more aft some time.

BUT YOU DIDN'T :/

i noe i will feel worse seeing u.

and i kept nvr agree to any outings that u initiated since the late sep.

other than that, you kept saying those stupid remarks.

(to wad they are, i shan't say)

told u not to say..

and u said "ok"

BUT U CONTINUED SAYING -.-

okay fine. but it's the last straw recently.

i just replied "can you stop saying those things? if not, i'll rly ignore u"

and that did the job o.o

okay. i tot things would be fine.

but u still kept blogging those stupid things in blog :/

okok, correction. not "kept" but "still, sometimes"

so i just blogged, for the first time aft mths.

telling you that words are cheap.

yes i noe, i'm soooooooo stupid to have said that.

i told u that i cnt trust u anymore.

cos u kept telling me different things.

den u said "you want the truth? i can tell u the truth over the phone now. i call u?"

the first thing that i tot was "wad truth?? more lies? :/ or more hurting things to make me recall those sad past?"

i'm trying to forget u noe...

so that i can treat u as a fren.

FREN.

(k la, just told waiyu that i'm fine wid him msging me moderately and she said 'NNNNNNOOOO'. LOLL!!! so funny. okok. back to story)

i forgot wad i wanted to say.

but all in all..

i just want u to let things rest first.

as in... not saying those stupid things.

that's why i kept telling u to focus on ur studies -.-

i dun want your studies to be affected by me.

and idk if i'm too softhearted or too stupid.

i actually tot of u being sad now and i felt bad :/

and sad too.

and stupid me. tsk me :/

i actually wanted to reply his sms wid this,

"suan le. dun do it agn"

GO AWAY LA. I HATE U -.-

and thanks very much. my friday is ruined by u.

i alr tried to treat u nicely cos i think that my actions might be biased.

but u still do it.

YOU STILL DO IT.

now it's not i dun wanna try to treat u nicely.

it's YOU WHO DUN WANNA ME TO DO IT.

that's it.

烦不烦啊

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

so wad if it's an effort.

... :/

anw, aft venting my anger here,

i felt beta alr.

but still, i'll be irritated if xxxxxx tries to irritate me agn

(edited btw)

and this post is merely to vent my anger. hadn't been angry for quite some time alr.

and congrats. you did it. you angered me

my patience is running super low now.

chancesssss given.

warningssss given

things said and you carry on

and "sry cher eng" is all u can say

so SHUT UP. STOP IT !

so wad's wid the "xxxxxx"

and me saying "pls stop saying this. thank you"

and nxt day "xxxxxx" .

LAME RITE.

and you continued "sry. can you accept my apologise"

grammatical error somemore.

and what's wid the "i'm not a PREFECT person", "action is part of everything"

and i alr reacted sooooo big that day. and zzzz. you still dare to ask me if you can do it agn.

BULL SHIT LA.

and dun say i nvr warn you, my patience is running real low wid repeated offenders like u.

and please note.. i always bear wid everyone who did wrong for very very very very long period of time. how long? is one yr long enough? and of cos.. i will forget it if ppl did a few wrongdoings. but not when they are repeated for MANY MANY MANY TIMES.

headache. lack of slp is not helping but only adds on to my anger.

i wouldn't be so angry if not for ... ...

dun test my patience.

anyone who irritate me now, wun get it for me.

cos i still have patience for other ppl but not ppl like xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. -.-" !

and..... for goodness sake. pls reflect on yourself.

STOP BEING SUCH MCP.

to you, everyone is in the fault.

you duno that you're the unreasonable one and still want to say others are in the fault.

i dun even dare to say i'm NOT in the fault.

i'd think of wad i did b4 defending myself. and putting myself in other ppl shoes.

yes i noe. i might have done sth wrong.

but at least i tried to think. YOU?

(dun assume that i'm saying you or anyone else who's reading this post, which i doubt there would. and dun get angry thinking that i might be saying you.. or you or anyone)

if things i do and say, forever gets misunderstood, den it's meaningless to continue this argument.

my blog's soooo dulll !!!

so here are some pics :D:D:D

this are the pic taken on the day we went to ly's chalet :D

once agn, thanks for the invitation xD

so *bling bling* xD

LOLOL! wad are u doin? :P

I was like anyhow snapping away ;x

and this pic, made me seem sooo fair x.x

happy gal ~ :P

i like this pic. cos it seems sooo sweet xD

like a happy family (:

and nik's like kept aiming for the cake :x

meet up soon, guys :D:D:D:D

conflicts. arguments.

necessary?

perhaps yes, to a certain extent.

i'm so sick of u 2, always quarreling.

dun u noe, sch work comes first, rather than those little little stupid arguments?

arguing over little things, rly ain't helping anything, but putting our project at risk.

as for our project...

though i've done practically nth towards the design, i can understand the feeling for hard work, all gone down the drain.

yes, everything's changed.

so, how are we gng to explain "our design", or rather, YOUR design to the judges?

changes have been done. so i think, wad we can only do now, is to ask you abt the design, yeah?

MST's over. been to liyin's chalet. had fun. and it's kinda nice to see her aft so long.

it's nice.

thanks liyin for the invitation ((:

but when i came home, all weary and yearning for some rest,

all i see, was argument agn.

yes, conflicts are inevitable.

but, aft any conflicts, we should noe wad to do, and wad not to do.

RATHER THAN COMPLAINING AND ARGUING OVER SOME LITTLE, STUPID THINGS.

from one side of the story, all i see from u, was scoldings from him and his fren.

but from another side of the story, it's more of u trying to not bother our supervisor and trying to get our things done. more of explanation.

from my part of understanding u 2's character, it's more of u, having a bad temper and you explaining things, but was misunderstood as scolding.

i've seen u scolding you in real life. so, i can sorta conclude sth. but all in all, is this argument necessary?

NO. to be frank, i DON'T see any arguments, necessary. Rather, i see explanation more necessary.

but when ppl explain, they tend to lose their temper. and in the end, conflicts occur, right?

i noe, all of u, want to get our project done, well. so do i.

i dun mind gng back to sch almost everyday, just to make sure that things are done, effectively and efficiently.

and i'm the sort of "sch work comes first, rather than outing, outing and outing". if work ain't done, or work are yet to be accomplished, i rly wun feel happy or relieved gng out.

at least, work should be 80% done? or at least 75% i guess. i wished i was hardworking last time. so at least, i wun get to poly and meet some.................. ppl.

but it's all fated. cos from some ppl , i get to noe good ppl. or at least, good to whom i think they are.

this morning, i woke up, and saw crappy things... agn

i explained some things.

do you noe, i rly wanted to tell you that, i've stopped trusting u almost totally?

all the trust, effort that i've put into last time, all came to nothing.

so now wad? hurt?

only u?

i've been hurt, cheated, saddened soooooo many times, till i felt that it's normal to be hurt by u.

dun tell me u noe the feeling.

cos u noe nth. i feel nth abt this incident alr. i'm moving on.

so shld u.

i'd rather be told the ugly truth. that's wad i told u too. but hey, wad do you mean by telling me the truth now? are u trying to tell more lies, or trying to evoke those sad feelings, all over agn?

do u noe that, you're always telling me different things, now and den?

well, i dun feel anything now alr, anw. at least, not as much as last time.

yes, i dun deny that past, always haunt aft me.

but, i'm rly moving on.

and i'm rly tking things in my stride.

i'm just tired of those arguments.

if those arguments are necessary, dun worry, i'll "debate" wid u.

but if i dun find them necessary, i wun wanna say much. cos some arguments, are rly rly rly childish. sometimes, i just doubt ppl of their age. perhaps, i dun act like my age. but some ppl, dun even act at least my age too. yes i noe, age dun reflect a person's character :/

i'm loving the improved relations wid my bro ((:

me and him, dun talk more than 5 sentences daily, last time.

and sometimes, we dun even talk.

i'm so glad that i took the initiative to help him solve his comp prob previously.

and den, me and him strted to talk more.

and slowly and slowly.

we talked more and more.

and we can rly joke freely.

so different from last time.

i'm rly glad to have tken the initiative.

should have done so, much earlier

(:

mst's nxt wk.

and aft that would be our fyp.

gonna find and research right aft my last paper.

sat i think. and sun too !

cnt do so on fri, cos gng out :D

aft my paper, though.

i'm not so stressed for my fyp alr.

or at least, i'm trying to not be stressed.

i kept telling myself

"dun wry. it'll be over soon. b4 u knew it, you'd have graduated. and now, mst's just nxt wk.

and den, it'll be spinnovex and exams. (:"

indeed, time flies.

and, went to lunch wid mum last fri

the coffee seller (mum's fren) had this conv wid my mum:

him: is that your daughter?

mum: ya.

him: i cnt recognise her. she looks so different now.

mum: *:) *

mum told me abt this conv and i went "huh? why cnt he recognise me? he saw me b4 o.o"

LOLOL. den my mum told me sth else

dun wanna say here :P

*heh*

SNORING, POOR SLEEP MAY PREDICT OBESITY, DIABETES
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NEW YORK - People who snore, have trouble falling asleep or who wake up in the morning feeling fatigued, have an increased risk of developing conditions tied to diabetes and heart disease, a study has found.

The study, published in the journal Sleep, followed 812 people who did not have metabolic syndrome - conditions that include obesity, high blood pressure and diabetes - at the beginning of a three-year period. The patients had yearly checkups to determine if they were developing metabolic syndrome, and sleep disturbances were measured via a questionnaire.

Adults who reported frequent loud snoring had twice the risk of developing metabolic syndrome compared with quieter sleepers, the researchers found. The risk jumped 80 per cent in people who had difficulty falling asleep and 70 per cent in those who said their sleep was not refreshing.

The report is the first to examine the relationship between sleep problems that patients commonly report to their doctors and metabolic syndrome as a whole, said lead author Wendy Troxel, an assistant professor of psychiatry and psychology at the University of Pittsburgh.

"Sleep problems aren't just an annoyance but something with potential major public health ramifications," she said.

Further studies are needed to determine if sleep disorders and snoring cause metabolic syndrome, or are symptomatic of it, Asst Prof Troxel added. Bloomberg

no more emo le (:

not say 100% , but i'll try hard :D

jyjyjy !!! :D