was i overreacting?

maybe i was :/

at least, i should have a short chat?

it's like u came all the way down...

i should at least say thanks.

but i did say previously.

but i did tell u not to do the same thing agn

but i did tell u to ask me first.

but i did say i wasn't free.

but i did react badly previously (as in... kinda got angry)

but i was more of being scared last time.

this time, i was rly angry till i cnt even talk properly when i saw u.

wait correction. i didnt even look at u.

cos i didnt want to.

and... didnt dare to? :/

and all i could say was

"you come for wad?"

"if dere's nth else, i'm gng off alr. not free"

ya i noe i sounded super straightforward and harsh

but that's the only solution to u.

previously, i talked nicely.

i said "pls dun do this agn."

but things still happen.

so well, cnt blame me for doing things to harsh

i didnt wanted to anw..

i noe i've hurt u :/

aft calming down.. i actually felt remorseful and...... felt that i'm overreacting.

but..

talked to waiyu :DD

and rly felt beta..

and....... thanks for saying i'm not overreacting xD

that's wad i need to noe, right now i guess.

his fren asked me out tmr..

and i was still angry at that time.

i said "if he is coming, i'll go home straight"

but if i weren't angry at that time, i think i'd still have said the same thing.

to be frank..

at first i was kinda irritated by u.

but idk why but still tried to give u chances (to talk to u nicely ONLY)

cos i didn't want to keep ignoring ur sms.

i replied short replies.. and didnt reply all.

cos i TOT that u would reduce on the msg.

but if u did, i'll slowly feel fine talking to u..

and will reply more aft some time.

BUT YOU DIDN'T :/

i noe i will feel worse seeing u.

and i kept nvr agree to any outings that u initiated since the late sep.

other than that, you kept saying those stupid remarks.

(to wad they are, i shan't say)

told u not to say..

and u said "ok"

BUT U CONTINUED SAYING -.-

okay fine. but it's the last straw recently.

i just replied "can you stop saying those things? if not, i'll rly ignore u"

and that did the job o.o

okay. i tot things would be fine.

but u still kept blogging those stupid things in blog :/

okok, correction. not "kept" but "still, sometimes"

so i just blogged, for the first time aft mths.

telling you that words are cheap.

yes i noe, i'm soooooooo stupid to have said that.

i told u that i cnt trust u anymore.

cos u kept telling me different things.

den u said "you want the truth? i can tell u the truth over the phone now. i call u?"

the first thing that i tot was "wad truth?? more lies? :/ or more hurting things to make me recall those sad past?"

i'm trying to forget u noe...

so that i can treat u as a fren.

FREN.

(k la, just told waiyu that i'm fine wid him msging me moderately and she said 'NNNNNNOOOO'. LOLL!!! so funny. okok. back to story)

i forgot wad i wanted to say.

but all in all..

i just want u to let things rest first.

as in... not saying those stupid things.

that's why i kept telling u to focus on ur studies -.-

i dun want your studies to be affected by me.

and idk if i'm too softhearted or too stupid.

i actually tot of u being sad now and i felt bad :/

and sad too.

and stupid me. tsk me :/

i actually wanted to reply his sms wid this,

"suan le. dun do it agn"