Dear Sxxxxxx,

sighs, like i said, i dun need u.

last time, i just felt so bad when i didnt reply u.

but i felt nth when i did that recently.

guess, we're rly over.

i tried to treat u as a beta fren, but..

u kept doing nonsensical things.

not nonsensical actually, but.. now,

no matter wad u did,

i just felt so........ idk how to explain.

i think i'm so used to seeing:

"morning cher eng (: "

"have u eaten ur bf? go eat anything and dun go sch wid an empty stomach. not good for you"

"are you feeling cold now?"

"you have been busying wid spinnovex, sure very tired"

"rest early. good nite"

and aft 30 mins l8r,

"are you asleep? if u heven, go slp now"

or even "i'm still doing my report. sian lo. need to hand it in agn"

and also, i only reply like abt 2 smses out of soooooooo many smses u sent me.

dun u feel anything nor think that sth is amiss? :/

HAHA. standard smses xD

so funny la.

but no matter wad, i'm so used to seeing them and not replying u alr.

thinking back,

i cnt believe that i wanted u sooo much in my life last time,

that my life had always been so depressing :/.

and now, i just want u to get out.

but i'm sure, if u leave me alone, i'll be able to talk to u like a normal frens in time to come.

provided that u dun remain so weird xD

you told me that, you decided to become a changed person cuz of me.

so means if i'm not dere, you wun be a changed person?

BUT.... changed person as in to wad a kind of person?

i doubt u even noe where u went wrong xD

HAHAHA funny ah D:

and, even if i've studied this module b4,

i doubt u need my help in this.

first, i didnt get A.

second, you can always approach your lecturer cos she'd of cos be super super good in this area.

third, tot you always said that you made use of your frens in class?

well, i duno why you used the word "make use". you told me that ppl make use of one another to get beta grades and i went 'huh?'. i duno if u used the wrong word, or if that's your real feelings. but i'm sure, if i were to tell u now, "tot u said that u'd make use of your frens?", you'd go "huh? NO LA. why make use? i nvr say such things". i noe that'd most prob be your reaction cos... i noe you for so long and was so close wid u b4. but u still dun understand me. and like i said in my previous post.. u dun understand me at all. told you b4 that being frens would be beta for us. BUT u continued wid those stupid actions and aft quite a number of days l8r, you told me "actually, i have being thinking. i think that being frens would be good for us". my first thinking was "aint that wad i told u?????" :/ seriously, seriously, u dun understand me. if u do, you'd noe that i dun bear quarrels in mind nor harp over them (though i'd still rmb that quarrels still did exist) and i wun get angry wid anyone for so long. i'd miraculously not get angry wid anyone as fast as 30 mins, provided that he/she dun keep harping on it. but if i still feel angry, it means that that's the last straw alr. and well, i'll be fine the nxt day den or even aft a nap.

anw, that's all for the post tdy. tata

signing off.

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