this world is so cruel, so pragmatic.

:/

and....

i think u're talkin abt me.

yes i noe, dere's nth wrong wid that.

cos no one cares.

and like wad u mentioned b4, u dun care.

i duno what's the prob wid me.

kept thinking and thinking abt it.

and kept feeling bad when apparently, nth "big" happened.

or maybe, i'm just being paranoid.

u wun noe what i meant even if u were to see this.

which i doubt that you'll see this anw.

and.. to someone else.

i'm sry.

i shouldn't have let my bad mood affect my working attitude.

i didnt explain to u.

cos, i noe i'm in the wrong.

but, dere's rly a lot of things happened recently.

i rly cnt handle it alone.

no matter how many times tings happened,

i would still feel the same way.

but i cnt and wun do anything this time.

except to... ... *sighs*

no matter wad, i ought to change.

i'm aware of that even if u didnt say.

but at least when u told me,

dere's another "push" for me to improve on that.

and i hope tdy's "surprise" wun come to naught.

it's the first aft 30 answered calls.

and, i rly need to apologize to who it may concern.

dere's always reasons for those things that i've done,

esp my attitude.

i chose to ignore and talk lesser to let things simmer down.

explanations have been done anw.

sometimes, i just felt so tired ...

rly tired.

and sometimes, i rly wonder how i get the extra strength

to go for sch, for work.

okay, not total strength.

sometimes, i just lack the determination and just felt so useless.

sry to say this agn but, i will change and

i will continue, hopefully.

rly hopefully ):

and i noe that no matter wad i say and feel now are useless.

:)