thank you for letting me feel so stressed up,

adding up to the stress from fyp.

thank you for letting me feel so "pale" tdy

thank you for letting me have a chance to be stalked by my fyp mates.

thank you for giving my fyp mates have sth to laugh over tdy (which i think is funny too)

thank you for making me feel so tired.

thank you for everything -.-

you noe wad, sometimes i rly question myself to why i treat some ppl so differently from the others.

just like today.

in mrt, i was feeling so awful.

and den, flashback started.

and i felt so annoyed.

i rmb once, i said "ttyl" cos i was rly busy wid my work but you still kept replying to that sms

nvm.

worse still is that u copied me -.-

and said ttyl to me the nxt day.

Aft you said that, i didnt dare to reply u, for fear of disturbing u.

BUT U STILL CONTINUED TO SMS ME.

so, i replied rte?

and u said i'm disturbing u.

WTH -.-

den when i met you the nxt time,

i asked u "do you noe the meaning of ttyl?"

and u said "talk to you"

den i'm like "uh.. wad about 'l'?"

and u gave me one guilty or blur look -.-

and i went "it's talk to you l8r"

u asked me to attend a talk wid u tdy

i rly wanted to ignore ur sms.

but i felt bad.

and i rly recalled the other time where i asked u out for a talk.

you said "sorry. i'm gng wid my other frens"

i was sooooo disappointed wid you.

cos it's like hello?

we're gng to the same talk, at the same place. why cnt we go tgt!?!?!?

i told u abt this over the phone.

and the nxt day, you smsed me.

you said "let's go to the talk tgt. since we're gng to the same talk. why not go tgt?"

and do you noe that, when u said that, i totally went '-.-'

do you only noe how to say this aft i said it?

if i didnt ask u to the talk, wun u ask me to it?

and now, when u asked me abt it,

i duno how should i feel.

happy cos i didnt noe dere's such a talk and u informed me abt it?

or disappointed cos u only noe how to ask me to the talk now, and rather last time.

or sad till i felt like saying "sorry but i am gng tgt wid my frens" (though i've not rly asked anyone to go wid me)

and do you noe that, i felt so awful, so sad, so disappointed when u're like nicer to me now?

cos it's like, you're only so nice to me NOW?

wad abt last time?

yaya, i noe u'll gimme loads of lame excuses.

LAME SHIT -.-

tsskkkkk

and well, i was thinking abt sth too.

i asked you if you're entering spinnovex.

and i expected only a 'yes/no' for a reply.

in the end,

you said sth like "entering spinnovex wun ensure u an A. our project is gng green chemistry not into industralizing. spinnovex is for team whose project can be industralized one. dere's 3-4 interview to undertake. If not up to standard, grades will drop"

i just wanna noe if u intend or even gng to spinnovex.

u dun have to tell me one whole chunk of like "hmmm..." craps.

it just reminds me of that time when i asked you "when is our sch strting?"

(we were on e phone previously)

and you said "it's like nxt wk we start sch, den this wk....."

aft saying that, i immediately cut in and asked agn "when is our sch strting?"

and u asked "you duno wad i'm saying?"

-.-

told wy abt this and i agreed wid her.

"wad's the link?"

i duno why i kept harping over u.

but i think i do noe why aft all.

cos u're still clinging on to me -.-

i dun rly mind BUT, the way u're doing it is super tsk.

even my frens laughed at wad u said.

YES, WE ALL THINK THAT IT'S LAME -.-

IT'S SUPER WTH

DO YOU NOE HOW I FEEL TDY?

I FEEL LIKE DELETING MY FB.

and loads more unhappiness.

i feel like deleting that blog.

AND BTW, IT'S SO OBVIOUS.

ARE U DOING ALL THESE,

cos u dun understand gals?

cos u dun wanna try to think abt how i feel?

cos u duno wad i'm trying to imply?

cos u duno wad else to do?

cos u're trying to salvage things?

and.. i dun see that

"have a nice day ahead" can rly lemme have a nice day ahead -.-